Submissions by emoboi24 (Nik-Forever)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Poetry is my love.
Another round...
I'm quiet comfortable,
In this little dark space.
Playing video games,
Sleeping on my face.
Dysphoria and depression may be coming out to play.
Killed both a million times before,
With scars for proof of struggle.
But yet,
I still stumble.
Haven't yet crumbled.
Fell to my knee's,
But I will never bow.
To the emptiness inside,
The hole in my mind.
It's okay.
I'll be alright.
Just have to find my feet,
In the dark.
It's a trap,
I can't do this again.
Oh hell,
What's another round?
With the devil,...
In this little dark space.
Playing video games,
Sleeping on my face.
Dysphoria and depression may be coming out to play.
Killed both a million times before,
With scars for proof of struggle.
But yet,
I still stumble.
Haven't yet crumbled.
Fell to my knee's,
But I will never bow.
To the emptiness inside,
The hole in my mind.
It's okay.
I'll be alright.
Just have to find my feet,
In the dark.
It's a trap,
I can't do this again.
Oh hell,
What's another round?
With the devil,...
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Believe...
Struggling to find my way,
Through this world.
Never really felt like I've belong,
Cause people tell me different.
Daily...
I can't see the reason for me to go through this.
But If I can make it here.
I can make it anywhere.
Right?...
Then why am I so shy,
Why do I feel worthless?
How can I get this feeling out of my heart.
I'm so up myself and can't believe in myself!
Even with the proof I have standing in front of me.
Staring at me,
Talking to me.
Mind clogging me.
Putting fear in me!.
How...
Do I believe?
...
Through this world.
Never really felt like I've belong,
Cause people tell me different.
Daily...
I can't see the reason for me to go through this.
But If I can make it here.
I can make it anywhere.
Right?...
Then why am I so shy,
Why do I feel worthless?
How can I get this feeling out of my heart.
I'm so up myself and can't believe in myself!
Even with the proof I have standing in front of me.
Staring at me,
Talking to me.
Mind clogging me.
Putting fear in me!.
How...
Do I believe?
...
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Day Dreamer.
Words bother me, so talk?
I'd rather not.
I've honestly got nothing much to say.
I'm not that much of a talker.
Not many people care for my real words,
Or real beliefs.
I'm more of a dreamer.
A zombie to the world,
Sometimes.
Cause I day dream constantly.
Wonder who I'd be,
If things were different.
If I were different.
My dreams are my heaven most times.
Only because of myself.
Everything else is perfect.
I could never be perfect.
Since I could remember,
I've dreamt of it.
Perfect...
It's not that I won't make it...
I'd rather not.
I've honestly got nothing much to say.
I'm not that much of a talker.
Not many people care for my real words,
Or real beliefs.
I'm more of a dreamer.
A zombie to the world,
Sometimes.
Cause I day dream constantly.
Wonder who I'd be,
If things were different.
If I were different.
My dreams are my heaven most times.
Only because of myself.
Everything else is perfect.
I could never be perfect.
Since I could remember,
I've dreamt of it.
Perfect...
It's not that I won't make it...
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When your question's are answered.
As I laid asleep,
God came to me in a dream.
He said.
You're not a mistake,
I didn't do this by accident.
I didn't do this to see you suffer.
I'm sorry for the torment and the pain.
But every lion needs a mane.
And you're becoming a better man,
The I ever had planned.
And if you take my hand,
I'll help you stand tall.
And I'll never let you fall again.
The worst is over and hopefully now,
You know.
All the things you wouldn't,
If you were born as normal as you wished you would.
I wanted you to know sacrifice and pain.
So...
God came to me in a dream.
He said.
You're not a mistake,
I didn't do this by accident.
I didn't do this to see you suffer.
I'm sorry for the torment and the pain.
But every lion needs a mane.
And you're becoming a better man,
The I ever had planned.
And if you take my hand,
I'll help you stand tall.
And I'll never let you fall again.
The worst is over and hopefully now,
You know.
All the things you wouldn't,
If you were born as normal as you wished you would.
I wanted you to know sacrifice and pain.
So...
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Obsessed #2
So I'm thinking I should let go.
Let go of what once was,
Continue on.
But see this obsession has me on my knee's,
Confessing.
Twisting your lightly brushed hair,
Between my finger tip's.
Swaying your hips.
Underneath a solar eclipse.
Speaking with my mind,
Not with word's.
You say I'm unkind.
Not in the right state of mind.
What's with the facial expression?
Do I look like I'm joking?
You're just so provoking.
Don't act like you didn't cause this.
I can't stop this..
Feeling.
Nik.J.Tucker
Let go of what once was,
Continue on.
But see this obsession has me on my knee's,
Confessing.
Twisting your lightly brushed hair,
Between my finger tip's.
Swaying your hips.
Underneath a solar eclipse.
Speaking with my mind,
Not with word's.
You say I'm unkind.
Not in the right state of mind.
What's with the facial expression?
Do I look like I'm joking?
You're just so provoking.
Don't act like you didn't cause this.
I can't stop this..
Feeling.
Nik.J.Tucker
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Those sounds...
It's a terrifying thing to be lost.
Lost inside of your own mind.
Drowning in a pool of thought's.
Praying for a savior,
Scribbling on paper.
Trying to shut out the voice's,
Only I can hear.
I have something that rattles my bones.
Scratches at the sides of my fragile skull.
Infecting my thought's.
A monster inside,
A demon beneath.
I have something inside of my soul.
I tell no lie,
It control's my mind.
And it's difficult to explain.
Hard to revel.
My heart is unable to feel.
Cause this isn't who I am.
I'm actually a...
Lost inside of your own mind.
Drowning in a pool of thought's.
Praying for a savior,
Scribbling on paper.
Trying to shut out the voice's,
Only I can hear.
I have something that rattles my bones.
Scratches at the sides of my fragile skull.
Infecting my thought's.
A monster inside,
A demon beneath.
I have something inside of my soul.
I tell no lie,
It control's my mind.
And it's difficult to explain.
Hard to revel.
My heart is unable to feel.
Cause this isn't who I am.
I'm actually a...
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Depression...
So they call me depressed...
Self destructive, a mess...
Harmful to myself cause
Every day is a test.
And I fail.
Each and every day,
I don't want get out of bed cause I'm depressed.
Poison air,
I inhale.
Infected,
Mind.
I'm distressed,
And I confess.
I need help,
But who can help me?
And when I look into the mirror,
I cringe.
A unfamiliar face appears.
Cause I live a life of fear.
Pretending...
I'm so tired of trying to mend my heart.
And I continue to think I'll fail at everything.
So I never try......
Self destructive, a mess...
Harmful to myself cause
Every day is a test.
And I fail.
Each and every day,
I don't want get out of bed cause I'm depressed.
Poison air,
I inhale.
Infected,
Mind.
I'm distressed,
And I confess.
I need help,
But who can help me?
And when I look into the mirror,
I cringe.
A unfamiliar face appears.
Cause I live a life of fear.
Pretending...
I'm so tired of trying to mend my heart.
And I continue to think I'll fail at everything.
So I never try......
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Becoming A Man...
I used to think I knew what it mean't to be a man.
But my opinion is so overwhelmed.
And it's like I have no idea what I'm talking about.
Cause I'm told that...
Being a man is determined by how big your biceps are.
How many girl's you've slept with,
And how many skull's you've crushed with a single punch.
But I'm still not convinced.
Although I've never been surrounded by great male role models.
I know right from wrong.
And I believe some men now days have it all wrong.
See,
The day you become a man isn't the day you turn 18.
It's not...
But my opinion is so overwhelmed.
And it's like I have no idea what I'm talking about.
Cause I'm told that...
Being a man is determined by how big your biceps are.
How many girl's you've slept with,
And how many skull's you've crushed with a single punch.
But I'm still not convinced.
Although I've never been surrounded by great male role models.
I know right from wrong.
And I believe some men now days have it all wrong.
See,
The day you become a man isn't the day you turn 18.
It's not...
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Obsessed...
You call me obsessed.
Cause you just can't confess,
That you're a lying little witch..
Flitching with every arm raise I make.
I ask questions,
You delay every answer.
Testing my aggression.
Can I make one small suggestion,
Please?
Quit the lying act,
The crying act.
You're innocent's isn't a fact.
Smiling in your sleep.
I see every twitch,
I'm never falling asleep.
Overreact one more time I'll attack your heart.
Make your soul weep.
Lack of sleep,
Unstable feet.
Testing your intelligence's,
You're about to fall...
Cause you just can't confess,
That you're a lying little witch..
Flitching with every arm raise I make.
I ask questions,
You delay every answer.
Testing my aggression.
Can I make one small suggestion,
Please?
Quit the lying act,
The crying act.
You're innocent's isn't a fact.
Smiling in your sleep.
I see every twitch,
I'm never falling asleep.
Overreact one more time I'll attack your heart.
Make your soul weep.
Lack of sleep,
Unstable feet.
Testing your intelligence's,
You're about to fall...
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Freedom...
Freedom...
A word so powerful to me,
You would never be able to understand.
A word so cheerful...
Cause I was once so harmful to myself.
I was lost inside of my soul,
With no where to go.
No where to call home but in front of the mirror
And eye's that would glow.
I was in fear of my life
With every stare came a shiver.
So I'd cry a river... into my pillow,
But when I got up and left that room.
No one would know.
I was mastering a disguise,
An angel without the eye's.
Freedom...
A word I now have inked into...
A word so powerful to me,
You would never be able to understand.
A word so cheerful...
Cause I was once so harmful to myself.
I was lost inside of my soul,
With no where to go.
No where to call home but in front of the mirror
And eye's that would glow.
I was in fear of my life
With every stare came a shiver.
So I'd cry a river... into my pillow,
But when I got up and left that room.
No one would know.
I was mastering a disguise,
An angel without the eye's.
Freedom...
A word I now have inked into...
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Time never stops.
Driving myself nuts,
Crazy with thoughts in my head of breath taking lust.
Feelings in my stomach of words stumbling.
Bones aching,
Yours for the taking.
Things I should have said.
Things I should have done.
And I'm getting too old for games,
And you're getting a little too old for this fame.
I'm a train wreck when thoughts come to you.
I'm blind, just waiting for a taste.
And I'm so mentally backwards.
Unorganized, fate.
Faith is lost within inside your eye's.
Never had someone take me so high,
Never stood begging so low. ...
Crazy with thoughts in my head of breath taking lust.
Feelings in my stomach of words stumbling.
Bones aching,
Yours for the taking.
Things I should have said.
Things I should have done.
And I'm getting too old for games,
And you're getting a little too old for this fame.
I'm a train wreck when thoughts come to you.
I'm blind, just waiting for a taste.
And I'm so mentally backwards.
Unorganized, fate.
Faith is lost within inside your eye's.
Never had someone take me so high,
Never stood begging so low. ...
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Temper...
I can't take your bitter emotional state.
Your hate the world view,
And your everyone's shady attitude.
You're pushing me towards the edge.
The breaking point,
Of uncontrollable cursing and violence.
I'm so close to the edge.
My temper is raging through my skin,
Twitching in my nerves.
Every time you open your lying mouth,
I come closer and closer.
Shit here it comes.
There it goes,
My temper is taking over.
Losing control of everything I own.
But feels so good to let go.
And give you an ear full of insanity.
A fist full...
Your hate the world view,
And your everyone's shady attitude.
You're pushing me towards the edge.
The breaking point,
Of uncontrollable cursing and violence.
I'm so close to the edge.
My temper is raging through my skin,
Twitching in my nerves.
Every time you open your lying mouth,
I come closer and closer.
Shit here it comes.
There it goes,
My temper is taking over.
Losing control of everything I own.
But feels so good to let go.
And give you an ear full of insanity.
A fist full...
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