Submissions by ashm9109

Waking up with the room spinning and my stomach turning
mysterious bruises and cuts and my feet are burning
dirt under my nails and my make up is smeared
hot breath with the taste of cigarettes and beer
did I fall asleep or did I pass out
the same questions every time I black out
backtrack to last night going out to the bar
did I walk home who knows its not very far
drink one and drink two I'm still okay
drink six and drink seven no memory today
met a few people danced to some songs
trying hard to remember when it went wrong
flashback hits me...

It's my little sisters wedding day,
I'm not sitting in the church pews,
big moments in her life,
I know that I've missed a few

like when she learned to talk, or when she learned to walk,
when she had her first birthday,
when she had her first Christmas
I know I missed this

or when she had her first date
I didnt meet the boy who took her out,
I didnt make sure he knew what being a gentlemen was all about

I wasn't the big brother that looked after her
and kept her safe,
didn't do silly things
like sticking her face...