Submissions by XXcrazychickXX (XXMad HatterXX)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Its Not My f**king FaultPt.1
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The Darkness
I cant run
I can try to hide
Ill always be found
It wont be afraid
to try
Try to make me lose
my mind
Drive me crazy
While Ive lost to my
own insanity
Make me insane on so
many levels
It wont turn back
On this mission it
has begun
I cant stop It wont
stop
Its the darkness thats
inside of me
The darkness that
haunts me
Eating away my soul
till theres nothing left
The only thing Ill have
is pain,sorrow,darkness,
loneliness,and despair
I can try to hide
Ill always be found
It wont be afraid
to try
Try to make me lose
my mind
Drive me crazy
While Ive lost to my
own insanity
Make me insane on so
many levels
It wont turn back
On this mission it
has begun
I cant stop It wont
stop
Its the darkness thats
inside of me
The darkness that
haunts me
Eating away my soul
till theres nothing left
The only thing Ill have
is pain,sorrow,darkness,
loneliness,and despair
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Sick and Tired
Im so sick
Sick of the way I feel
I feel angry because I
feel so weak
I feel so depressed
and angry inside
Sometimes I just try to
hide
Hide the real me from
ever letting it show
Hiding my true feelings
while i sit back and watch
on the inside
Its like im in a horror
movie
But I cant move or run
I cant run and hide from the killer
Ill only die
Die alone from my sadness,
weakness,and loneliness
Die from the pain Ill suffer
for the rest of my life
Die because Im weak
Sick of the way I feel
I feel angry because I
feel so weak
I feel so depressed
and angry inside
Sometimes I just try to
hide
Hide the real me from
ever letting it show
Hiding my true feelings
while i sit back and watch
on the inside
Its like im in a horror
movie
But I cant move or run
I cant run and hide from the killer
Ill only die
Die alone from my sadness,
weakness,and loneliness
Die from the pain Ill suffer
for the rest of my life
Die because Im weak
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Unnamed
Why do i always feel left out
Not knowing what to do
I feel alone
Trying to find my way in this world
I feel sad and angry
I feel as if ill drown
in my own tears
My heart aches so much
I dont know if ill be able to
it anymore
Im losing my mind
I dont wanna lose to the darkness
Im gonna fight it
Try to defeat it never giving in to it
Not knowing what to do
I feel alone
Trying to find my way in this world
I feel sad and angry
I feel as if ill drown
in my own tears
My heart aches so much
I dont know if ill be able to
it anymore
Im losing my mind
I dont wanna lose to the darkness
Im gonna fight it
Try to defeat it never giving in to it
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Never Understand
I never understand
Why am I here why am I trying
Trying to be loved
Im never going to be loved
Never ever Im not
I dont know why
I feel this way sometimes
I feel angry,sad,and ashamed
I cant think right right now
I hate my life hate it so much
Why cant I just end all this pain
The misery
The never ending sadness
Why am I here why am I trying
Trying to be loved
Im never going to be loved
Never ever Im not
I dont know why
I feel this way sometimes
I feel angry,sad,and ashamed
I cant think right right now
I hate my life hate it so much
Why cant I just end all this pain
The misery
The never ending sadness
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Unwanted
I feel as if im unloved
Like I dont have a purpose
in this world
I feel like im stuck in hell
and the hell is Earth
Im trapped by chains that dont
rust or wear
I wonder why am I here
Am I just a toy,pawn,or an animal
that should be caged up
Which is it
I need an answer
I need to know
Who am I
Am I human or an foreign and
unwanted creature
Why am I hated,shunned,
and rejected
Why do they cause me pain
Why do I always hurt inside
Why does my heart ache
Why am I shaking in fear
Fear of ever being treated...
Like I dont have a purpose
in this world
I feel like im stuck in hell
and the hell is Earth
Im trapped by chains that dont
rust or wear
I wonder why am I here
Am I just a toy,pawn,or an animal
that should be caged up
Which is it
I need an answer
I need to know
Who am I
Am I human or an foreign and
unwanted creature
Why am I hated,shunned,
and rejected
Why do they cause me pain
Why do I always hurt inside
Why does my heart ache
Why am I shaking in fear
Fear of ever being treated...
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Loneliness
Its the eyes he says
Theyre keeping me from retrieving
what im trying to find
The memories of what we used to be
It isnt there anymore I say
Now its just an old and broken
memory
It was so long ago
Why are you looking for something
thats only drowned in darkness
You should give up on
searching I say
Youll only find loneliness,
pain,despair,and sorrow
Why do you say these things
he asks
Because I say
You left me there
All alone with noone to tell me
its alright dont cry anymore
Youll never know how i felt...
Theyre keeping me from retrieving
what im trying to find
The memories of what we used to be
It isnt there anymore I say
Now its just an old and broken
memory
It was so long ago
Why are you looking for something
thats only drowned in darkness
You should give up on
searching I say
Youll only find loneliness,
pain,despair,and sorrow
Why do you say these things
he asks
Because I say
You left me there
All alone with noone to tell me
its alright dont cry anymore
Youll never know how i felt...
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Why did She die
As the pungent odor fills my nose
The dead and burnt body is slowly
turning to ash
I scream out as her remains blow
away
Carried by the wind
Why did she have to die for me
Why
Why couldnt I save her
Why couldnt I be there to save her
I was a coward
Too weak and too afraid to do
anything
Now ive lost her
Ive lost her because of my own
foolishness and ignorance
I shouldve been the one to die
not her
Now ive lost everything
Everything I ever loved
I want to kill myself
Theres no reason for me
to live on now...
The dead and burnt body is slowly
turning to ash
I scream out as her remains blow
away
Carried by the wind
Why did she have to die for me
Why
Why couldnt I save her
Why couldnt I be there to save her
I was a coward
Too weak and too afraid to do
anything
Now ive lost her
Ive lost her because of my own
foolishness and ignorance
I shouldve been the one to die
not her
Now ive lost everything
Everything I ever loved
I want to kill myself
Theres no reason for me
to live on now...
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About
Why do they tease me and taunt me
Why is it always about me
Why is it always about my hair
The clothes I wear
Why is it always me
They dont know anything about me
They dont know what I have to go
through
Im in pain every single day
Not being able to stand up for
myself or even defend myself
I try to ignore all the stares
as I walk by
I walk with my head down afraid
if I look up
Id be made fun of
Im an outcast
Im not anti-social
Im just not good around strangers
Id just like to be alone
I want to be someplace...
Why is it always about me
Why is it always about my hair
The clothes I wear
Why is it always me
They dont know anything about me
They dont know what I have to go
through
Im in pain every single day
Not being able to stand up for
myself or even defend myself
I try to ignore all the stares
as I walk by
I walk with my head down afraid
if I look up
Id be made fun of
Im an outcast
Im not anti-social
Im just not good around strangers
Id just like to be alone
I want to be someplace...
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Why is it me
I feel as if Ill crack
Crumble under the pressure
Im confused on what to do
To just go with it or to
just leave it alone
Should I play along or quit this game
I wonder do I have the guts to tell
her off
I dont know what to do
Whether to be afraid or just
sit there as it happens
I dont know what to do
Will I get hit for the words Ive
said to her
Will I be punished for the things
that Ive did to her
When will she stop living in her dreams
Living in her own little fantasy
Im beggining to lose my mind
The insanity is...
Crumble under the pressure
Im confused on what to do
To just go with it or to
just leave it alone
Should I play along or quit this game
I wonder do I have the guts to tell
her off
I dont know what to do
Whether to be afraid or just
sit there as it happens
I dont know what to do
Will I get hit for the words Ive
said to her
Will I be punished for the things
that Ive did to her
When will she stop living in her dreams
Living in her own little fantasy
Im beggining to lose my mind
The insanity is...
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Mother
Mother do you love me
Do you care about me
Mother why wont you ever
listen
Mother dont abandon me
Would you even care if I
was hurt
Would you care if I died
Why wont you ever listen
I feel as if youve taken
a knife and stabbed me in the heart
I feel as if I dont know you anymore
Mother why
Why do this to me,youre own
flesh and blood
Why cant you see that im dying here
Dying of the loneliness,dying of the pain
Am I worthless to you mother
What am I to you
Am I the groud you walk on
Am I the trash you throw away...
Do you care about me
Mother why wont you ever
listen
Mother dont abandon me
Would you even care if I
was hurt
Would you care if I died
Why wont you ever listen
I feel as if youve taken
a knife and stabbed me in the heart
I feel as if I dont know you anymore
Mother why
Why do this to me,youre own
flesh and blood
Why cant you see that im dying here
Dying of the loneliness,dying of the pain
Am I worthless to you mother
What am I to you
Am I the groud you walk on
Am I the trash you throw away...
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Alone
As the days of my life go on
I wonder if there is ever a chance
A chance to ever be spared of the pity,
the pain,the guilt,and the sadness
Why do they feel sorry for me
Dont they even know
I dont want their apologies and
pittiness
I just want to be left alone
Left alone so i can waste away
in my own misery
I just want to be alone so i wont
have to face them
Look at the faces of the people who
feel for me,hate me,and despise me
I dont want this any of this
Not even a moment of it
I just want them to understand
Thai i want...
I wonder if there is ever a chance
A chance to ever be spared of the pity,
the pain,the guilt,and the sadness
Why do they feel sorry for me
Dont they even know
I dont want their apologies and
pittiness
I just want to be left alone
Left alone so i can waste away
in my own misery
I just want to be alone so i wont
have to face them
Look at the faces of the people who
feel for me,hate me,and despise me
I dont want this any of this
Not even a moment of it
I just want them to understand
Thai i want...
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