Submissions by Smoogej1s (Taylor)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Do You?
Do you know what it's like,
to have barely any friends that are there for you?
Do you know what it's like,
to have no one understand you?
Do you know what it's like,
to have no one to talk to?
Do you know what it's like,
to hide your pain everyday?
Do you know what it's like,
to not talk to anyone?
Do you know what it's like.
to feel like crying all the damn time?
Do you know what it's like,
to feel like you're doing nothing right?
Do you know what it's like,
to be judged for everything you do?
Do you know what it's like,
to...
to have barely any friends that are there for you?
Do you know what it's like,
to have no one understand you?
Do you know what it's like,
to have no one to talk to?
Do you know what it's like,
to hide your pain everyday?
Do you know what it's like,
to not talk to anyone?
Do you know what it's like.
to feel like crying all the damn time?
Do you know what it's like,
to feel like you're doing nothing right?
Do you know what it's like,
to be judged for everything you do?
Do you know what it's like,
to...
75 reads
6 Comments
Panic & Anxiety
my hand trembles as my nerves
stretch to the point of breaking
particles of sanity collect in my palm
moist and cool against my scorching skin
my hands constrict
and draw into fists
driving my nails
like thorns into my flesh
the shot of pain
snaps me back for a moment
but only for a brief respite
the muscles in my hands
start a chain reaction
that transverses up my arms
and into my shoulders
the tension settles in the back of my neck
and draws up the muscles from my shoulder blades
every nerve stands at attention
...
stretch to the point of breaking
particles of sanity collect in my palm
moist and cool against my scorching skin
my hands constrict
and draw into fists
driving my nails
like thorns into my flesh
the shot of pain
snaps me back for a moment
but only for a brief respite
the muscles in my hands
start a chain reaction
that transverses up my arms
and into my shoulders
the tension settles in the back of my neck
and draws up the muscles from my shoulder blades
every nerve stands at attention
...
80 reads
2 Comments
Emotional Mechanism
just days ago I was blinded by the guise of denial
emotional mechanism set in place for protection
"this isnt happening" I repeated
but it was happening
as my eyes went hollow within my reflection
I refused to recognise the reality of the moment
I saw tears of anguish stream down my face
but it still wasn't happening
I tried to distance myself from it all
distractions and denial make for complacency
my conscious mind shifted
to subconscious through
just days ago I was blinded by a flash of reality
no...
emotional mechanism set in place for protection
"this isnt happening" I repeated
but it was happening
as my eyes went hollow within my reflection
I refused to recognise the reality of the moment
I saw tears of anguish stream down my face
but it still wasn't happening
I tried to distance myself from it all
distractions and denial make for complacency
my conscious mind shifted
to subconscious through
just days ago I was blinded by a flash of reality
no...
98 reads
2 Comments
Nothing Will Ever Be The Same
a history of memories
flash in my brain...
a horror movie being replayed
a quick strike of violence
and the entire world has changed
and now
nothing will ever be the same
a shattered trust
with a lifetime of pain...
with the loss of control
of anger
and rage
should have taken a deep breath
and just walked away
because now
nothing will ever be the same
to look in the mirror
and know who’s to blame
never-ending guilt
and feelings of shame
for that brief moment
of who you became...
flash in my brain...
a horror movie being replayed
a quick strike of violence
and the entire world has changed
and now
nothing will ever be the same
a shattered trust
with a lifetime of pain...
with the loss of control
of anger
and rage
should have taken a deep breath
and just walked away
because now
nothing will ever be the same
to look in the mirror
and know who’s to blame
never-ending guilt
and feelings of shame
for that brief moment
of who you became...
98 reads
10 Comments
Whirlwind
last night it turned on me again
a dark and frightening whirlwind
closed my eyes and made it worse
the darkened sorrow I so curse
under my lids the dark devoured
all of the light and its power
within its grasp I grew weak
and lost the will inside of me
through the night I felt alone
scared
and lost
and on my own
inside my thoughts endless dread
as the dark danced in my head
it picked
and picked
and picked apart
this ever threatening growing dark
into the wounds of my heart
it drove the thorns...
a dark and frightening whirlwind
closed my eyes and made it worse
the darkened sorrow I so curse
under my lids the dark devoured
all of the light and its power
within its grasp I grew weak
and lost the will inside of me
through the night I felt alone
scared
and lost
and on my own
inside my thoughts endless dread
as the dark danced in my head
it picked
and picked
and picked apart
this ever threatening growing dark
into the wounds of my heart
it drove the thorns...
55 reads
6 Comments
My Sorrow Weeps
my sorrow weeps with a quiet calm
as anxious dread builds
my heart sings a woeful song
and my memories set to kill
I withdraw once again
from the the ones that I love
and unconsciously shift my focus
to the ones that I’ve lost
my sadness cries with sobbing pain
anxiety continues to grow
my heart beats a steady ache
as my thoughts feed my sorrow
once again I’m absent
to the world that I love
my eyes are seemingly vacant
as I sit in sombre alone
my sorrow weeps and my sadness cries
as anxiety and dread...
as anxious dread builds
my heart sings a woeful song
and my memories set to kill
I withdraw once again
from the the ones that I love
and unconsciously shift my focus
to the ones that I’ve lost
my sadness cries with sobbing pain
anxiety continues to grow
my heart beats a steady ache
as my thoughts feed my sorrow
once again I’m absent
to the world that I love
my eyes are seemingly vacant
as I sit in sombre alone
my sorrow weeps and my sadness cries
as anxiety and dread...
75 reads
6 Comments
Me
I twisted my eyes to change the view
to one that I’m not accustomed to
but what I found through twisted eyes
was a world tainted in compromise
the view was changed and rearranged
but somehow all stayed the same
shadows cast in a different light
but still the same struggle and fight
I gave up the me inside of myself
in order to find the me that could help
but throughout the trip I only found
the me in myself tied and bound
I punched a hole right through my soul
and left a void I cannot close
from the siv my lifeblood leaks...
to one that I’m not accustomed to
but what I found through twisted eyes
was a world tainted in compromise
the view was changed and rearranged
but somehow all stayed the same
shadows cast in a different light
but still the same struggle and fight
I gave up the me inside of myself
in order to find the me that could help
but throughout the trip I only found
the me in myself tied and bound
I punched a hole right through my soul
and left a void I cannot close
from the siv my lifeblood leaks...
67 reads
2 Comments
Today
words fall like hammers on my heart
a swift blow and I'm knocked back
my fucking mind is blown apart
on a day when words attack
psychotic dreams kill me again
ripping my heart from my chest
a mirrors reflection of where I’I've been
and why I can get no rest
the mourning light strikes my eyes
rancid pain flows down my cheeks
the everflow of dying time
shows that I am miserably weak
today was not the day that I needed this
my wounds were bleeding when I awoke
unable to deal with any of it
I've chewed...
a swift blow and I'm knocked back
my fucking mind is blown apart
on a day when words attack
psychotic dreams kill me again
ripping my heart from my chest
a mirrors reflection of where I’I've been
and why I can get no rest
the mourning light strikes my eyes
rancid pain flows down my cheeks
the everflow of dying time
shows that I am miserably weak
today was not the day that I needed this
my wounds were bleeding when I awoke
unable to deal with any of it
I've chewed...
92 reads
2 Comments
Moment
vanishing moments
arrive with a blur
leaving pittering hearts
engaged
noting the passing of
time will not slow its pace
inviting
nuances of
emotional
stimulation
deep breaths
anticipate
a perfect moment
yearning to blossom
arrive with a blur
leaving pittering hearts
engaged
noting the passing of
time will not slow its pace
inviting
nuances of
emotional
stimulation
deep breaths
anticipate
a perfect moment
yearning to blossom
48 reads
2 Comments
Word(s) Worth
I thought I saw the words
creeping into my mind
any word worth its worth
spilled out into my eyes
visually
capturing
snapshots as they appear
drawing in breaths
as images become clear
words
paint
pictures
the canvas
comes to life
self expressed scripture
flowing across the rhyme
seeing
being
the thoughts control themselves
dancing in my memory
develop
without
help
the structure
sets the flow
words fall into place
as if they already know
the order in which to...
creeping into my mind
any word worth its worth
spilled out into my eyes
visually
capturing
snapshots as they appear
drawing in breaths
as images become clear
words
paint
pictures
the canvas
comes to life
self expressed scripture
flowing across the rhyme
seeing
being
the thoughts control themselves
dancing in my memory
develop
without
help
the structure
sets the flow
words fall into place
as if they already know
the order in which to...
74 reads
12 Comments
Disappointment
what must you think of me
so full of grief and misery
so over run with pain
and going insane
how must you feel
to see how bad I feel
unable to cope or accept
and so dreadfully depressed
how hard you must cry
when you see the tears
flooding my eyes
to know that I can’t let go
and just say goodbye
how sad you must be
to see such sadness in me
to know that in my heart
I feel so torn apart
how disappointed you must be
when you gaze upon me
and what you see
is just so weak
how...
so full of grief and misery
so over run with pain
and going insane
how must you feel
to see how bad I feel
unable to cope or accept
and so dreadfully depressed
how hard you must cry
when you see the tears
flooding my eyes
to know that I can’t let go
and just say goodbye
how sad you must be
to see such sadness in me
to know that in my heart
I feel so torn apart
how disappointed you must be
when you gaze upon me
and what you see
is just so weak
how...
111 reads
8 Comments
Sanity
I inhale deep
to draw myself back inside of me
tiny pieces of my sanity
fragmented
I hold my breath
to keep my insecurities in check
I die upon the doubt in my chest
suffocating
I swallow hard
slicing my throat to bloody shreds
to draw myself back inside of me
tiny pieces of my sanity
fragmented
I hold my breath
to keep my insecurities in check
I die upon the doubt in my chest
suffocating
I swallow hard
slicing my throat to bloody shreds
138 reads
8 Comments
DU Poetry : Submissions by Smoogej1s (Taylor)