Submissions by Smoogej1s (Taylor)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
The Day, The Gray, and The Listless Night
today the light has fallen dim
the colors have drained from the world
cascading shades of black and grey
are sharpened only by grayish highlights
is seems as though my shadow has left me
to transcend this day alone
without the light to shine my path
the darkness shall scratch at my back
I do not like this day today
as the wanting colors fade from my eyes
listlessly I stare into my own soul
trying to find some spark of light
the colors have drained from the world
cascading shades of black and grey
are sharpened only by grayish highlights
is seems as though my shadow has left me
to transcend this day alone
without the light to shine my path
the darkness shall scratch at my back
I do not like this day today
as the wanting colors fade from my eyes
listlessly I stare into my own soul
trying to find some spark of light
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Numb
the sky casts over
with shades of grey
accents of sorrow
cascade from the clouds
misery blankets the world
and the pain is widespread
a landscape
clad in mourning
beckons upon
a rolling fog
for a release
from the aching
to be numb
within the darkness
with shades of grey
accents of sorrow
cascade from the clouds
misery blankets the world
and the pain is widespread
a landscape
clad in mourning
beckons upon
a rolling fog
for a release
from the aching
to be numb
within the darkness
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Predisposition For Dread
saw the light in the eyes of the dead
dreamt as the shadows danced
and the moonlight pranced
and it all played out in my head
heard cries from the voices of the dead
deafening screams that echoed
throughout the hollow
and they meant every word that they said
tasted death from the mouth of the dead
as I laid an empty kiss
upon deadened lips
I scoffed at my penchant for dread
Felt on my skin the touch of the dead
rigor stiff and cold
a future foretold
of never-ending unrest
smelt a scent of decay from the dead...
dreamt as the shadows danced
and the moonlight pranced
and it all played out in my head
heard cries from the voices of the dead
deafening screams that echoed
throughout the hollow
and they meant every word that they said
tasted death from the mouth of the dead
as I laid an empty kiss
upon deadened lips
I scoffed at my penchant for dread
Felt on my skin the touch of the dead
rigor stiff and cold
a future foretold
of never-ending unrest
smelt a scent of decay from the dead...
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Finding Myself
to all of those that I have neglected
through this process
please accept my apology
to my friends
and family
whom I am withdrawn from
I cannot say
I am sorry enough
I started this
and now, I’m not sure how to end it
if I leave it behind now
I’m afraid that it will
pop back up later
and I will regret not seeing it through
the last thing I need
is more demons
and ghosts
to haunt
and torment me
as I continue to
search my soul
as I forge through
all of this muck
I lose more of myself in...
through this process
please accept my apology
to my friends
and family
whom I am withdrawn from
I cannot say
I am sorry enough
I started this
and now, I’m not sure how to end it
if I leave it behind now
I’m afraid that it will
pop back up later
and I will regret not seeing it through
the last thing I need
is more demons
and ghosts
to haunt
and torment me
as I continue to
search my soul
as I forge through
all of this muck
I lose more of myself in...
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Void
a void that will not be filled
an emptiness that cuts deep
like a razor to the fucking bone
to a hollow place
that will forever bleed
a death of a life
cut down in its glorious prime
shattered dreams falling to ash
at the feet of those who grieve
those who mourn a loss
pain rips a hole
an open wound filled with salt
tears flow without end
and sorrow forever burns in my heart
an emptiness that cuts deep
like a razor to the fucking bone
to a hollow place
that will forever bleed
a death of a life
cut down in its glorious prime
shattered dreams falling to ash
at the feet of those who grieve
those who mourn a loss
pain rips a hole
an open wound filled with salt
tears flow without end
and sorrow forever burns in my heart
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Drawing Blood
razors dance across aching skin
a memory within a dream
metallic light shimmers
in a darkened space
cold steel
real life
drawing blood
crimson stains upon satin sheets
life pools within my hand
black pain flows
from a darkened place
cold winds
dead thoughts
drawing blood
dreams blur into the reality of a moment
mischievous shadows taunt
illumination of a hallucination
upon a darkened heart
frozen fear
whispered words
drawing blood
closed eyes see with sullen urgency
how...
a memory within a dream
metallic light shimmers
in a darkened space
cold steel
real life
drawing blood
crimson stains upon satin sheets
life pools within my hand
black pain flows
from a darkened place
cold winds
dead thoughts
drawing blood
dreams blur into the reality of a moment
mischievous shadows taunt
illumination of a hallucination
upon a darkened heart
frozen fear
whispered words
drawing blood
closed eyes see with sullen urgency
how...
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Reflections In The Rain
vibrant sky's succumb to grey
the colors washing out
and from the clouds
comes the rain
erasing any doubt
a misty fog
obstructs the view
the world falling blind
whites
and greys
and darkened hues
lifeless to the eyes
drops of rain
drench the ground
a weeping sky proclaims
the living earth
shall surely drown
until nothing else remains
the colors washing out
and from the clouds
comes the rain
erasing any doubt
a misty fog
obstructs the view
the world falling blind
whites
and greys
and darkened hues
lifeless to the eyes
drops of rain
drench the ground
a weeping sky proclaims
the living earth
shall surely drown
until nothing else remains
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Twisting Anxiety
as I watch the storm clouds
roll across my eyes
I feel a grey
settle into my mind
the world collapses
upon a breaking thought
and time stops to
observe the moment
everything moves
in slow motion
as the hands of clock
tick in reverse
an eternity passes
as I turn my head
and makes the agony
that much worse
life trickles from
the corner of my eye
not of sorrow nor from pain
the subtle breaking
of a psyche
measured in drops of rain
with the world pressed
securely upon my chest
I start...
roll across my eyes
I feel a grey
settle into my mind
the world collapses
upon a breaking thought
and time stops to
observe the moment
everything moves
in slow motion
as the hands of clock
tick in reverse
an eternity passes
as I turn my head
and makes the agony
that much worse
life trickles from
the corner of my eye
not of sorrow nor from pain
the subtle breaking
of a psyche
measured in drops of rain
with the world pressed
securely upon my chest
I start...
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Insomniac
the dance of sorrow
in the eyes of darkness
a whisper hangs in the air
and clings to a secret
if tears fall on a cotton pillow
does anyone hear them
do they shatter the darkness
with an echoing sigh
upon a wish with
closed eyes
an insomniac rests
her body slumbers in the darkness
restless
the chaos of her mind
never slows
until it shuts down
from exhaustion
the illusion of sleep
a closed eyed insomniac
physical body at rest
the chaos of
an over animated mind
restless into the ...
in the eyes of darkness
a whisper hangs in the air
and clings to a secret
if tears fall on a cotton pillow
does anyone hear them
do they shatter the darkness
with an echoing sigh
upon a wish with
closed eyes
an insomniac rests
her body slumbers in the darkness
restless
the chaos of her mind
never slows
until it shuts down
from exhaustion
the illusion of sleep
a closed eyed insomniac
physical body at rest
the chaos of
an over animated mind
restless into the ...
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Life Part 4
This kind of weather is really bad for my seasonal depression. Usually, with the help of meds, my depression is pretty well managed, in fact, as long as you didn't see my arms, or legs, most people wouldn't even know that I AM depressed. I'm not using my "condition" to make people feel sorry for me though (I know people that do, and honestly, it REALLY pisses me off.)
After dealing with Tony's abuse for over 4 years, and then another year of looking over my shoulder where ever I went, making sure he wasn't near me, etc. I finally got up the courage to press charges on him....
After dealing with Tony's abuse for over 4 years, and then another year of looking over my shoulder where ever I went, making sure he wasn't near me, etc. I finally got up the courage to press charges on him....
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Life Part 3
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Life Part 2
As mentioned before, my life hasn’t exactly been rainbows and butterflies. I didn’t grow up in the picturesque, loving family with a mom and a dad and several siblings. I didn’t grow up with a dog or a cat, hell I didn’t even get a fish. I mean sure, I have siblings, a brother, and I had a little sister too. But I also had a dad, haven’t talked to or about him in years, probably the better part of my life, and honestly, I don’t plan to again.
If you ask doctors, or rather therapists, they’ll tell you I’m insane, that I’m in stable, and not capable of basic human interaction....
If you ask doctors, or rather therapists, they’ll tell you I’m insane, that I’m in stable, and not capable of basic human interaction....
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