Submissions by SickSanityJenn (Esoteric)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
He Gave Me The Good Stuff
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Hindsight
Memories they haunt
Whispering in the night
Twisting my reality
The ghosts of hindsight
Innumerable mistakes
I can't seem to forget
So unable to forgive
Riddled with regret
Relentlessly self aware
Every move scrutinized
There is no escape
From the restless inner eye
Belittled by myself
Such bitter thoughts
No room for happiness
Broken and distraught
The memories they haunt
Tortured late at night
This accursed awareness
The ghosts of hindsight
Whispering in the night
Twisting my reality
The ghosts of hindsight
Innumerable mistakes
I can't seem to forget
So unable to forgive
Riddled with regret
Relentlessly self aware
Every move scrutinized
There is no escape
From the restless inner eye
Belittled by myself
Such bitter thoughts
No room for happiness
Broken and distraught
The memories they haunt
Tortured late at night
This accursed awareness
The ghosts of hindsight
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Ghost In The Attic
In the deep of the night they came
I awoke at the sound of my name
Surrounded by darkness holding me down
Their presence consuming all ambient sound
I tried to scream but they entered me
Shattering what was left of my sanity
Pushing their way into my mind
Distorting every sense of place and time
A legion of horrors they forced me to see
My only escape was to vacate my being
No more than a specter am I
My animated corpse left behind
Without eyes I see the monsters true forms
Demonic creatures, pitiless and deformed
Helpless I watch as my...
I awoke at the sound of my name
Surrounded by darkness holding me down
Their presence consuming all ambient sound
I tried to scream but they entered me
Shattering what was left of my sanity
Pushing their way into my mind
Distorting every sense of place and time
A legion of horrors they forced me to see
My only escape was to vacate my being
No more than a specter am I
My animated corpse left behind
Without eyes I see the monsters true forms
Demonic creatures, pitiless and deformed
Helpless I watch as my...
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Winters in Codependency
Attachment is not compassion
Clinging, needy and desperate
Smoldering, smothering obsession
Getting caught up in the moment
Comfort is not completion
Sometimes it is just a hug
Simple platonic affection
Attraction becomes a drug
Passion is not kindness
Lost amidst your desire
Conquest through tenderness
A friendship on fire
Love is not selfish
Meeting only your own needs
Sexually deviant conquests
Lustful and unclean
Impulsive is not appealing
Meeting needs only to fill the void
Flirtatious, foolhardy...
Clinging, needy and desperate
Smoldering, smothering obsession
Getting caught up in the moment
Comfort is not completion
Sometimes it is just a hug
Simple platonic affection
Attraction becomes a drug
Passion is not kindness
Lost amidst your desire
Conquest through tenderness
A friendship on fire
Love is not selfish
Meeting only your own needs
Sexually deviant conquests
Lustful and unclean
Impulsive is not appealing
Meeting needs only to fill the void
Flirtatious, foolhardy...
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Breakup Sex
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Unforgivable
I prayed to you, I prayed through life
I begged to choose, I begged to die
I'm on my knees
I'm clasping hands
I'm screaming please
Hear my demands
All I wanted was to end this hurting
Nobody wants a life of suffering
Torn asunder from heavens denial
Rebuilt from the rejection pile
I prayed to you, I prayed to none
I begged for use, I begged for love
I'm off my knees
You're off your cross
Broken and unclean
I'm fucking lost
I begged to choose, I begged to die
I'm on my knees
I'm clasping hands
I'm screaming please
Hear my demands
All I wanted was to end this hurting
Nobody wants a life of suffering
Torn asunder from heavens denial
Rebuilt from the rejection pile
I prayed to you, I prayed to none
I begged for use, I begged for love
I'm off my knees
You're off your cross
Broken and unclean
I'm fucking lost
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My Lover (revisited and revised)
Show me wonder, show me greed
Slit my wrists and watch me bleed
take my heart and rape my soul
Break me down to make you whole
Look at me with love and scorn
You're lost inside both broke and torn
Through the anger love did grow
Kiss me now and kill me slow
Pilfer my money, subdue my mind
Confused and twisted up inside
Kiss my lips, touch my breast
Rip my heart out of my chest
You want more but inside I'm dead
Laying there upon your bed
Eyes fade blank, lips turn blue
There's nothing of me left for you ...
Slit my wrists and watch me bleed
take my heart and rape my soul
Break me down to make you whole
Look at me with love and scorn
You're lost inside both broke and torn
Through the anger love did grow
Kiss me now and kill me slow
Pilfer my money, subdue my mind
Confused and twisted up inside
Kiss my lips, touch my breast
Rip my heart out of my chest
You want more but inside I'm dead
Laying there upon your bed
Eyes fade blank, lips turn blue
There's nothing of me left for you ...
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Ramblings of a Lonely Person
Life is questions without answers
I'm breaking under the pressure
I'm losing site of the point here
Wondering if anyone really cares
I keep reaching out for something
But in the end I'm gaining nothing
Sometimes I just need a fucking hug
Someone to show me a little love
A little bit of kindness would go far
So I can know who my friends are
I look around feeling lost and empty
Wondering if anyone will help me
Figuring that it's too much to ask
To be more than just someone's past
Flung away like a piece of rubbish ...
I'm breaking under the pressure
I'm losing site of the point here
Wondering if anyone really cares
I keep reaching out for something
But in the end I'm gaining nothing
Sometimes I just need a fucking hug
Someone to show me a little love
A little bit of kindness would go far
So I can know who my friends are
I look around feeling lost and empty
Wondering if anyone will help me
Figuring that it's too much to ask
To be more than just someone's past
Flung away like a piece of rubbish ...
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Feeling Frankenstein (A makeover)
The despair crawls the length of my soul
Dragging it's nails along my bones
You've butchered my resolve with gnashing teeth
And hammered your sickness into my meat
Constant sorrow beats upon my brow
Leaving me twisted with a guttural growl
You dig your fingers into my core
Picking to pieces, inflicting sores
Wherever you lay your eyes, I bleed
Ripping my heart out before you feed
A lump of emotion without a taste
Devouring sadness leaves me to waste
Your evil intent has filled my soul
Stitching together my flesh and bone
Pleasure and...
Dragging it's nails along my bones
You've butchered my resolve with gnashing teeth
And hammered your sickness into my meat
Constant sorrow beats upon my brow
Leaving me twisted with a guttural growl
You dig your fingers into my core
Picking to pieces, inflicting sores
Wherever you lay your eyes, I bleed
Ripping my heart out before you feed
A lump of emotion without a taste
Devouring sadness leaves me to waste
Your evil intent has filled my soul
Stitching together my flesh and bone
Pleasure and...
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Part II: Perfect Doll
This is part 2 of my serial killer series that started with Part I: Obsession......
Sometimes to find Perfection
We must destroy and rebuild
Those broken, hollow creations
Just begging to be fixed and filled......
Bath of bleach to make you a queen
Blood purged for that pale skin glow
Contacts to make those eyes gleam
A little gloss and some eye shadow
First your pink and lacy underwear
Then the black dress to show curves
Brushed and curled your lovely hair
Wearing diamonds as you deserve
Finally...
Sometimes to find Perfection
We must destroy and rebuild
Those broken, hollow creations
Just begging to be fixed and filled......
Bath of bleach to make you a queen
Blood purged for that pale skin glow
Contacts to make those eyes gleam
A little gloss and some eye shadow
First your pink and lacy underwear
Then the black dress to show curves
Brushed and curled your lovely hair
Wearing diamonds as you deserve
Finally...
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One Night
I size them up before I make a move
Looking for one that puts me in the mood
No names needed, I'd forget anyway
One night stands are meant to go away
Good looking man with a sultry voice
Catch and release is my game of choice
I'm not shallow but I know what I like
A rowdy friend to get me through the night
Sweet and salty that's my favorite treat
Blazing eyes that bring me to my knees
Hard and rough can take me from behind
Or slow and steady to make me lose my mind
Always hungry, I know just what to do
We'll sixty-nine so you can taste me...
Looking for one that puts me in the mood
No names needed, I'd forget anyway
One night stands are meant to go away
Good looking man with a sultry voice
Catch and release is my game of choice
I'm not shallow but I know what I like
A rowdy friend to get me through the night
Sweet and salty that's my favorite treat
Blazing eyes that bring me to my knees
Hard and rough can take me from behind
Or slow and steady to make me lose my mind
Always hungry, I know just what to do
We'll sixty-nine so you can taste me...
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Scent of Inferno
Frightening creatures
Whisper beside me
Terrible monsters
Screaming inside me
Demonic fiends
Strip my sanity
Tortured dreams
Stole my humanity
Cryptic laughter
Whispers of deceit
Torn asunder
Hell is upon me
Eyes like the devil
You taste like him too
Gun to your temple
Take me with you
Whisper beside me
Terrible monsters
Screaming inside me
Demonic fiends
Strip my sanity
Tortured dreams
Stole my humanity
Cryptic laughter
Whispers of deceit
Torn asunder
Hell is upon me
Eyes like the devil
You taste like him too
Gun to your temple
Take me with you
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