Submissions by ScarletEmber
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Hello there, My name is Enya and I like to think I'm pretty awesome. I'm a senior at Kutztown and I love it here immensely.
A car crash can really f**k with you.
I should have died.
I am not a good person.
Because I am here,
People's lives have only worsened.
I try to remember doing good.
I can only see the bad.
The times I made my father cry,
All the times I made my parents sad.
I taunted my brother relentlessly.
He punched one of my many faces.
I really had it coming,
But come on... I had braces...
Blood poured out of my lip.
He got into so much trouble.
I got him back years later, I
whacked him with a baseball bat,
my trouble was double.
My...
I am not a good person.
Because I am here,
People's lives have only worsened.
I try to remember doing good.
I can only see the bad.
The times I made my father cry,
All the times I made my parents sad.
I taunted my brother relentlessly.
He punched one of my many faces.
I really had it coming,
But come on... I had braces...
Blood poured out of my lip.
He got into so much trouble.
I got him back years later, I
whacked him with a baseball bat,
my trouble was double.
My...
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Subspace
It feels like flying.
No, I'm not dying.
Tug my hair, beat my bum.
But please don't make me numb.
I like the pain.
You may think I'm insane.
But it's not that abnormal.
What is normal?
My legs go limp, I can't breathe.
You're not even choking me.
I pant, I grunt, I'm so excited.
To feel this again I'd be delighted.
I'm so glad I trust you.
I love being tied up. Who knew?
dig your kubaton into my shoulder.
My love for pain is more than a smolder.
You dig, I yelp.
But don't...
No, I'm not dying.
Tug my hair, beat my bum.
But please don't make me numb.
I like the pain.
You may think I'm insane.
But it's not that abnormal.
What is normal?
My legs go limp, I can't breathe.
You're not even choking me.
I pant, I grunt, I'm so excited.
To feel this again I'd be delighted.
I'm so glad I trust you.
I love being tied up. Who knew?
dig your kubaton into my shoulder.
My love for pain is more than a smolder.
You dig, I yelp.
But don't...
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Vendetta
No. What is no?
I don't use that word.
I don't get to say no,
I have no self worth.
Take me.
Use me.
Go on,
abuse me.
No one will stop you.
No one will care.
I've got all day,
I'm not going anywhere.
Beat me, fuck me,
Torture me until I'm numb.
Wait, scratch that. I'm already there.
How dumb.
"I like you." "You're married."
How dare I say no.
He went on his way,
And numb with self hate, I glow.
I glow red.
I glow white.
The red is anger, ...
I don't use that word.
I don't get to say no,
I have no self worth.
Take me.
Use me.
Go on,
abuse me.
No one will stop you.
No one will care.
I've got all day,
I'm not going anywhere.
Beat me, fuck me,
Torture me until I'm numb.
Wait, scratch that. I'm already there.
How dumb.
"I like you." "You're married."
How dare I say no.
He went on his way,
And numb with self hate, I glow.
I glow red.
I glow white.
The red is anger, ...
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Master Vicol
I thought you were creepy when we met.
What was a 35 year old doing with an 18 year old?
I went to the bar with you guys that night,
And my life forever changed, just like I was told.
We talked that night, we talked a lot.
I was confused, but I listened close.
You were Anja's boyfriend and master.
Her what? But I knew you loved her most.
Tsuritsa was a submissive to you both.
Anja was a swicth. A sub to you, a domme to her.
I wanted to be your pet too.
I think you could already infer.
You took me in, though I was a...
What was a 35 year old doing with an 18 year old?
I went to the bar with you guys that night,
And my life forever changed, just like I was told.
We talked that night, we talked a lot.
I was confused, but I listened close.
You were Anja's boyfriend and master.
Her what? But I knew you loved her most.
Tsuritsa was a submissive to you both.
Anja was a swicth. A sub to you, a domme to her.
I wanted to be your pet too.
I think you could already infer.
You took me in, though I was a...
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You deserve more.
When I look into your eyes,
I can see you're suffering.
Your love for her is your demise,
Your will is withering.
Withering away, because you "love her".
Then why do you cheat on her so?
You looked my in the eyes,
and your face brightened, so you know.
"Even in the dark, I can get lost in your eyes."
Do you say that to her?
I bet you say that to all the girls,
I want it to be a blur.
I hate myself for fucking you.
For being the other girl.
She should be your everything.
Your breath....
I can see you're suffering.
Your love for her is your demise,
Your will is withering.
Withering away, because you "love her".
Then why do you cheat on her so?
You looked my in the eyes,
and your face brightened, so you know.
"Even in the dark, I can get lost in your eyes."
Do you say that to her?
I bet you say that to all the girls,
I want it to be a blur.
I hate myself for fucking you.
For being the other girl.
She should be your everything.
Your breath....
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Fear.
Slip, crash, everything turns white.
Am I going to die? I have no sight.
My life flashed before my eyes.
It's amazing I didn't die.
We slipped, we tumbled, I heard the crunch.
My windshield caved in. Just a hunch.
I'm suddenly soaked. We're in water?
I know my parents love their daughter.
Did I crawl out the window, or through the door?
I can't even bare to think anymore.
Oh thank God the water is only ankle high.
How the hell am I still alive?
Climb. Climb up, we have to climb....
Am I going to die? I have no sight.
My life flashed before my eyes.
It's amazing I didn't die.
We slipped, we tumbled, I heard the crunch.
My windshield caved in. Just a hunch.
I'm suddenly soaked. We're in water?
I know my parents love their daughter.
Did I crawl out the window, or through the door?
I can't even bare to think anymore.
Oh thank God the water is only ankle high.
How the hell am I still alive?
Climb. Climb up, we have to climb....
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"Love"
When I look back on you, on us,
The first emotion that fills me is disgust.
I was so blinded by infatuation.
An older boy loves me without hesitation.
It wasn’t love; it was the need to be wanted.
Every now and again, my dreams are haunted.
Haunted with the memories of all the times I cried,
I thought I was bad, and you wouldn’t tell me why.
I apologized for being that way.
You held me close and said it’s ok.
It’s OK that you made me fight for your attention?
Think again, because you’re wrong, but all your wrongs I won’t mention.
Did...
The first emotion that fills me is disgust.
I was so blinded by infatuation.
An older boy loves me without hesitation.
It wasn’t love; it was the need to be wanted.
Every now and again, my dreams are haunted.
Haunted with the memories of all the times I cried,
I thought I was bad, and you wouldn’t tell me why.
I apologized for being that way.
You held me close and said it’s ok.
It’s OK that you made me fight for your attention?
Think again, because you’re wrong, but all your wrongs I won’t mention.
Did...
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Still Hanging on.
I am me, a lonely leaf.
The last leaf hanging on the tree.
All the other leaves turned colors, and scattered away.
But green am I, and here to stay.
The seasons changed,
Summer to fall to winter,
They're all gone.
And I still hold on.
I am me, the strong leaf.
I know my way, I know my place.
I've met mother nature face to face.
I smile at her with much grace.
The wind and rain have come my way.
But I am strong and here to stay.
The other leaves have fallen and gone.
But I am me, I still hold on.
The frost has come,...
The last leaf hanging on the tree.
All the other leaves turned colors, and scattered away.
But green am I, and here to stay.
The seasons changed,
Summer to fall to winter,
They're all gone.
And I still hold on.
I am me, the strong leaf.
I know my way, I know my place.
I've met mother nature face to face.
I smile at her with much grace.
The wind and rain have come my way.
But I am strong and here to stay.
The other leaves have fallen and gone.
But I am me, I still hold on.
The frost has come,...
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Cutting edge, the bloody truth.
I haven't done it in a while,
but every now end then, I'll pick up the blade,
press it to my skin.
Will I win?
Not this time, today I lost.
I watch the blood trickle down my body. It all happened so fast.
Well if I want to be free I guess this is the cost.
So many things gone through my head.
When it was over, I looked down at the blade.
And I looked down at my wound.
Not again, I think. What did I do?
Other days, I beat it. But in a sad way.
I press the blade down, hard enough to feel it,
but not enough to penetrate.
I...
but every now end then, I'll pick up the blade,
press it to my skin.
Will I win?
Not this time, today I lost.
I watch the blood trickle down my body. It all happened so fast.
Well if I want to be free I guess this is the cost.
So many things gone through my head.
When it was over, I looked down at the blade.
And I looked down at my wound.
Not again, I think. What did I do?
Other days, I beat it. But in a sad way.
I press the blade down, hard enough to feel it,
but not enough to penetrate.
I...
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Trapped in thick walls.
Head, shoulders, knees, toes.
There are things about me you don't quite know.
Like everyday I hide from you.
I'm always running from the truth.
The truth is it scares me.
And I'll never just let it be.
I lock myself inside these walls,
to protect myself from the fall.
The fall I know I'm going to take-
I'll fall so hard, I might not wake.
I'm afraid of myself and who I've become.
This is all happening so fast, what have I done?
Maybe I am in the wrong.
And I never admitted it all along.
I'm sorry who I am hurts you.
I...
There are things about me you don't quite know.
Like everyday I hide from you.
I'm always running from the truth.
The truth is it scares me.
And I'll never just let it be.
I lock myself inside these walls,
to protect myself from the fall.
The fall I know I'm going to take-
I'll fall so hard, I might not wake.
I'm afraid of myself and who I've become.
This is all happening so fast, what have I done?
Maybe I am in the wrong.
And I never admitted it all along.
I'm sorry who I am hurts you.
I...
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If I was sober.
Panic courses through my veins.
My heart racing, I'm so ashamed.
I know that I am the one to blame.
This wouldn't have happened if I was sober.
I was taken advantage of, but it was my fault.
As I egged him on, my mind came to a halt.
He came over and pinned me to the wall.
This wouldn't have happened if I was sober.
I realize the consequences of what I have done.
There's no turning back, I did this all my own.
This wouldn't have happened if I was sober.
My heart racing, I'm so ashamed.
I know that I am the one to blame.
This wouldn't have happened if I was sober.
I was taken advantage of, but it was my fault.
As I egged him on, my mind came to a halt.
He came over and pinned me to the wall.
This wouldn't have happened if I was sober.
I realize the consequences of what I have done.
There's no turning back, I did this all my own.
This wouldn't have happened if I was sober.
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To Whom it may Concern
To whom it may concern, they got it wrong, completely wrong. You know the term “in the closet”? Well, it’s not a closet. It’s a fucking prison, solitary confinement. I’m locked deep inside myself; dark, alone, afraid. I am terrified to reveal the real me. There is so much hate and ignorance, and people trying to mend what is unbroken. There is so much harassment, both physical and verbal. DYKE! WHORE. You fucking faggot. Burn. In. Hell. The true me is not safe anywhere. I’ve got to lie to get by.
To whom it may concern, there is nothing wrong with me. Unfortunately, not everyone...
To whom it may concern, there is nothing wrong with me. Unfortunately, not everyone...
#LGBT
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