Submissions by RammStein_Schatten

Okay, so I suppose admitting the feelings I feel suddenly
Are necessary to complete this growth of sorts; to move on
But I do not like this – I do this under duress and hostility

So much for all the construction I have done in the past
All the protection now gone; I completely at the mercy of one
I do not know my role or my lines but the die has been cast

I know from past experience that fighting destiny is useless
It just makes the lesson a harder thing to come through alive
And I am really tired of rebelling against life; of being self-abusive
...

Submit to my master’s designs
Give in to fate’s evil plot
If it destroys, so be it
Who knows, maybe it will not

Too late, I've given me over
And stupidly invested all of me
To he who holds the power
How did he get the key?

My only fear is of myself
For the most part I’m pleased
About the entire insane thing really
But internal conflict is destroying me

But what is the conflict about?
I don’t know, let us see…
I guess it’s mostly self-loathing
Being convinced that I’m not worthy

Whatever it is, please go away...

Oh my god, what the hell is wrong with me...again?!
Have I lost my fucking mind? why do i do this to myself
I know I’m twisted; just a bit but self mutilation?  
But come the fuck on…really?! not the fuck again...

Can’t eat; can’t sleep; can’t focus on everyday life
Even my dreams are filled with it-this sick fucking need
Every waking moment I feel it, physically…emotionally
This twisted obsession that I seem to be harboring

All my soft parts that I had stuffed way down deep
To keep them safe, clean, protected and breathing
The defensive...

I came, without asking, into your room last night
I needed to check on you, to see you, for myself
Thankfully you were away somewhere, off in a dream
With no idea I was there or had woven this spell

After watching you sleep for quite a long time
I realized that my being there was all wrong
You hadn't invited me there where you sleep
So I turned to leave, and I was almost gone

But before I could go, I had to turn for that one last look
For one final glimpse of your beautiful face
As my finger gently traced the outline of your cheek ...