Submissions by HeavenlyBlaze
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Poetry is my release for emotions. Each post, I can only get better- in poetry & mentally/emotionally. My work deals with a heartbreak that I went through not too long ago, but I try other topics as well. I'm open to anything if you are :) xoxo
One day
One day it'll stop hurting.
One day it'll be all over.
One day you'll stop feeling like this.
One day, you won't remember how you feel right now.
One day... You have that one day to look forward to whenever your down.
One day, you can finally say "I've made it."
One day it'll be all over.
One day you'll stop feeling like this.
One day, you won't remember how you feel right now.
One day... You have that one day to look forward to whenever your down.
One day, you can finally say "I've made it."
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Will it be too late?
Only hearing the voices in my head..
I'm starting to realize how contradicting they are.
"You need them, talk to them." and "Who are they to you? They're NOTHING anymore."
I don't know how I'm supposed to feel anymore.
Better yet, I'm starting to wonder.. what does it even mean to feel?
What does it mean to feel physically? What does it mean to feel mentally? What does it mean to feel emotionally?
Can't pinpoint any one thought to one simple action.
Not knowing which is worse, to do something you didn't mean or to do...
I'm starting to realize how contradicting they are.
"You need them, talk to them." and "Who are they to you? They're NOTHING anymore."
I don't know how I'm supposed to feel anymore.
Better yet, I'm starting to wonder.. what does it even mean to feel?
What does it mean to feel physically? What does it mean to feel mentally? What does it mean to feel emotionally?
Can't pinpoint any one thought to one simple action.
Not knowing which is worse, to do something you didn't mean or to do...
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Lost
Lost my muse.
Lost the joy for life.
Lost the ever lasting wonder and excitement for what's going to happen next..
Lost the only thing that ever mattered to me.
Lost the two things that I loved more than life.
Lost myself in finding one of them.
Lost without a cause.. I've become a lost cause.
Lost with no destination.
Lost with no cares.
Lost my feelings.
Lost my heart.
Lost my mind.
Lost everything.
After losing myself time and time again...how do I relocate myself?
Lost the joy for life.
Lost the ever lasting wonder and excitement for what's going to happen next..
Lost the only thing that ever mattered to me.
Lost the two things that I loved more than life.
Lost myself in finding one of them.
Lost without a cause.. I've become a lost cause.
Lost with no destination.
Lost with no cares.
Lost my feelings.
Lost my heart.
Lost my mind.
Lost everything.
After losing myself time and time again...how do I relocate myself?
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Broken
I'm speaking with enough hostility in my words that make you feel like you're being viscously beaten with a metal bat.
The things that I'm saying you wouldn't have ever expected to hear.
You never thought that the words I spoke would ever poison your mind from the tainted words that I'm trying to convey to you.
And the look in my eyes.. The look in my eyes is enough for you to not even recognize me anymore.
I've become a monster.
I've been pushed over the edge and thrown to the side and trampled over so many fucking times that the anger that I...
The things that I'm saying you wouldn't have ever expected to hear.
You never thought that the words I spoke would ever poison your mind from the tainted words that I'm trying to convey to you.
And the look in my eyes.. The look in my eyes is enough for you to not even recognize me anymore.
I've become a monster.
I've been pushed over the edge and thrown to the side and trampled over so many fucking times that the anger that I...
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Remembering vs Forgetting
The never ending battle between remembering and forgetting..
Wanting to remember how I loved you with everything I had in me.. How hard I fell for you, the pitch in your voice the first time you said you loved me. I want to remember the endless conversations that we had with each other that easily made me forget about all that was wrong in the world..the feeling of loving someone without trying to control it and so spontaneously that it seemed like a fairytale.
But at the same time..
I need to forget the way that you made me feel so empty. I need to forget how much...
Wanting to remember how I loved you with everything I had in me.. How hard I fell for you, the pitch in your voice the first time you said you loved me. I want to remember the endless conversations that we had with each other that easily made me forget about all that was wrong in the world..the feeling of loving someone without trying to control it and so spontaneously that it seemed like a fairytale.
But at the same time..
I need to forget the way that you made me feel so empty. I need to forget how much...
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The Effects of You
You help me breathe, but you take my breath away at the same time.
And when I look at you, it's like I'm seeing the world in color for the first time.
Everything about you, it just gives an overwhelming feel that shows me how broken I am as a person but how you still manage to complete me.
You make me feel like I have all the strength in the world when in retrospect I know that I can barely carry a basket of laundry.
But at the same time..You make me feel like I contain all the fear that there is in the world.
It feels like we could be the...
And when I look at you, it's like I'm seeing the world in color for the first time.
Everything about you, it just gives an overwhelming feel that shows me how broken I am as a person but how you still manage to complete me.
You make me feel like I have all the strength in the world when in retrospect I know that I can barely carry a basket of laundry.
But at the same time..You make me feel like I contain all the fear that there is in the world.
It feels like we could be the...
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The Good vs The Bad
Became a morning person because of you..
Woke up every morning believing that the only reason that the sun rose was to show you in a better light.
Even on the days where nothing was going right, I couldn't help but smile because I knew you were always going to be there.
Tried a million and one things just because you wanted it.
Your laugh is still what I think about whenever I'm down.
I fell in love with everything about you.
I fell in love with the color of your eyes.
I fell in love with the sound of your voice.
I fell in love with the way that...
Woke up every morning believing that the only reason that the sun rose was to show you in a better light.
Even on the days where nothing was going right, I couldn't help but smile because I knew you were always going to be there.
Tried a million and one things just because you wanted it.
Your laugh is still what I think about whenever I'm down.
I fell in love with everything about you.
I fell in love with the color of your eyes.
I fell in love with the sound of your voice.
I fell in love with the way that...
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Never ending cycle
Every time I walk into a room, I always seem to scan it to see if you're in there.
Every time my phone rings, there's always a part of me that never stops hoping that one day it'll finally be you again.
Your name is so common and whenever I hear someone say it, my eyes light up and I think that they're talking about you.. Until I realize that it wouldn't even be possible.
I always seem to catch myself staring at a person for a long period of time because from behind I think that it's you.
Why....It's been two years basically, why am I still thinking about...
Every time my phone rings, there's always a part of me that never stops hoping that one day it'll finally be you again.
Your name is so common and whenever I hear someone say it, my eyes light up and I think that they're talking about you.. Until I realize that it wouldn't even be possible.
I always seem to catch myself staring at a person for a long period of time because from behind I think that it's you.
Why....It's been two years basically, why am I still thinking about...
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Choices
I feel like I'm fighting a battle with two losing sides.
I talk to you, and I start falling back to exactly where I was two years ago..
I don't talk to you, and then it bothers me every time I look at you.
Conflicted between choosing wrong or right.
After everything has happened, this seems to be a never ending cycle.
How do I make it stop?
I talk to you, and I start falling back to exactly where I was two years ago..
I don't talk to you, and then it bothers me every time I look at you.
Conflicted between choosing wrong or right.
After everything has happened, this seems to be a never ending cycle.
How do I make it stop?
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What does it feel like?
What does it feel like to be loved unconditionally?
What does it feel like to be the first choice instead of the second?
What does it feel like to love and be loved back?
What does it feel like when someone is proud of you?
What does it feel like to know that people care?
What does it feel like to know that no matter what happens, that person will always be there?
What does it feel like to know someone will care once you're gone?
What does it feel like to say that you're fine and to really mean it?
What does it feel like...
What does it feel like to be the first choice instead of the second?
What does it feel like to love and be loved back?
What does it feel like when someone is proud of you?
What does it feel like to know that people care?
What does it feel like to know that no matter what happens, that person will always be there?
What does it feel like to know someone will care once you're gone?
What does it feel like to say that you're fine and to really mean it?
What does it feel like...
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Decisions
Sometimes I wonder what life would be like if I would have done that one thing differently.
Maybe I wouldn't be in the situation that I'm in.. Maybe I would actually be "fine".
Or maybe I would know what "fine" is supposed to be.
With every decision comes a price....
& unfortunately, the price just keeps rising.
When will it stop?
Maybe I wouldn't be in the situation that I'm in.. Maybe I would actually be "fine".
Or maybe I would know what "fine" is supposed to be.
With every decision comes a price....
& unfortunately, the price just keeps rising.
When will it stop?
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Lost myself trying to help you find your way
I don't know who I am anymore.
The people who have shaped me into who I am today are gone.. They left.
Why do people leave me when all I've ever asked of them was to stay?
"I don't wanna ever go more than a day without talking to you; let alone another week." and "You're the only person that still talks to me, nobody would ever understand how grateful I am to have you in my life."
How can you say these things and then one day decide that you're never going to speak to me again? You guys never meant that, did ya'?
Why is it always that I'm the one...
The people who have shaped me into who I am today are gone.. They left.
Why do people leave me when all I've ever asked of them was to stay?
"I don't wanna ever go more than a day without talking to you; let alone another week." and "You're the only person that still talks to me, nobody would ever understand how grateful I am to have you in my life."
How can you say these things and then one day decide that you're never going to speak to me again? You guys never meant that, did ya'?
Why is it always that I'm the one...
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