Submissions by Duncan (Duncan Alexander)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write about life, love, pain and drugs. I have all these thoughts shouting for attention, sometimes I can summon the strength to grab a few of the louder ones and put them on paper.
SELF POEM
Published
19th Aug 2014 9:04pm
19th Aug 2014 9:04pm
Victim Republic
I'm powerless but I'm powerless
It feels good to get fucked
When I know nothing I do just for me
Will amount to anything
For me
When I say I don't know what to do
It's about me
Not about you
The meaning of life is
What do I have to do now
Not for me
But for you.
It feels good to get fucked
When I know nothing I do just for me
Will amount to anything
For me
When I say I don't know what to do
It's about me
Not about you
The meaning of life is
What do I have to do now
Not for me
But for you.
29 reads
1 Comment
DRUGS POEM
Published
14th Jul 2014 8:29pm
14th Jul 2014 8:29pm
Naked
Shedding my skin
I feel like it's peeling away and leaving me bare
all that's left is a body and some hair
minus the bullshit
and all my control
I'm naked
and scared
that there's nothing protecting my soul
I can't stop
all that I thought is me is gone
my confidence is crumbled
I don't know what to do
all that I thought kept me from using,
I feel completely screwed
The program seems paltry
in comparison to my problem,
I'm far too faulty
my chances less than slim.
I feel like it's peeling away and leaving me bare
all that's left is a body and some hair
minus the bullshit
and all my control
I'm naked
and scared
that there's nothing protecting my soul
I can't stop
all that I thought is me is gone
my confidence is crumbled
I don't know what to do
all that I thought kept me from using,
I feel completely screwed
The program seems paltry
in comparison to my problem,
I'm far too faulty
my chances less than slim.
92 reads
1 Comment
DRUGS POEM
Published
14th Jul 2014 7:49pm
14th Jul 2014 7:49pm
Self-Pity
Wallowing in weight
it feels like depression is my fate,
I pick up just to fall back down
I wear a smile but feel a frown
I feel I should be happy,
I'm clean and in good company
Truth be told I'm feeling a tad crappy
like life and living have been dumped on me
I thought I saw myself today
I caught a glimpse of hope
but in truth when I'm on the outside
I don't think I will cope.
it feels like depression is my fate,
I pick up just to fall back down
I wear a smile but feel a frown
I feel I should be happy,
I'm clean and in good company
Truth be told I'm feeling a tad crappy
like life and living have been dumped on me
I thought I saw myself today
I caught a glimpse of hope
but in truth when I'm on the outside
I don't think I will cope.
123 reads
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DRUGS POEM
Published
12th Jul 2014 5:45am
12th Jul 2014 5:45am
Not Trying
The eve before Christmas
a day like all days
I sit 'doing stepwork'
while in my head games get played
I let my mind wander
it gets lured from my life
subtle probing
pushes my mind
to piss poor places
I feel like what I think's being watched
from the eyes of other people's faces
I give in to distraction
these now neunced thoughts
letting my mind be moved
like my thoughts can be bought
I lack conviction
is what I tell myself
it's my wanton willpower
and incessant indecision
that flummox my footing...
a day like all days
I sit 'doing stepwork'
while in my head games get played
I let my mind wander
it gets lured from my life
subtle probing
pushes my mind
to piss poor places
I feel like what I think's being watched
from the eyes of other people's faces
I give in to distraction
these now neunced thoughts
letting my mind be moved
like my thoughts can be bought
I lack conviction
is what I tell myself
it's my wanton willpower
and incessant indecision
that flummox my footing...
38 reads
1 Comment
DRUGS POEM
Published
12th Jul 2014 5:42am
12th Jul 2014 5:42am
Confronted
Coming face to face
or more like elbow to ear
with the reality of my situation
and the sum of my fear
I don't know what to do
with this weight on my head,
I thought I'd held the weight of the world
but beared my ego instead
It was too hard to handle
it tore at my mind
these things in my head
that'd been making me blind
there was a clash twixt two worlds
out my head and within
the latter of the two
causing me to sin
As I find that I can't runaway from my head
as I lie awake each night on my...
or more like elbow to ear
with the reality of my situation
and the sum of my fear
I don't know what to do
with this weight on my head,
I thought I'd held the weight of the world
but beared my ego instead
It was too hard to handle
it tore at my mind
these things in my head
that'd been making me blind
there was a clash twixt two worlds
out my head and within
the latter of the two
causing me to sin
As I find that I can't runaway from my head
as I lie awake each night on my...
86 reads
2 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
11th Jul 2014 9:32pm
11th Jul 2014 9:32pm
The Rain
God is in the water
he watches us through the rain
he lives with in all of us
and lets my mind
and world
be sane
He's the care between two creatures
the joy one brings to others
patience and tolerance some of his features
and love between life's brothers
Water is life
life is for living
living is caring
and caring is sharing
in the experience of life.
he watches us through the rain
he lives with in all of us
and lets my mind
and world
be sane
He's the care between two creatures
the joy one brings to others
patience and tolerance some of his features
and love between life's brothers
Water is life
life is for living
living is caring
and caring is sharing
in the experience of life.
55 reads
1 Comment
DRUGS POEM
Published
11th Jul 2014 9:26pm
11th Jul 2014 9:26pm
Weighted
Pulling through
unparalleled pressure
tantamount to tons
a terrifying trial
a life lived
not lied
Finding happiness
and hope
keeping in mind
life's scope
we watch and we wait
as we deal with life's weight
Taking pleasure in the small things
all the beauty that life brings,
the stars out each night
and the world in the light
we make the best of our fate
not leaving life 'til too late
unparalleled pressure
tantamount to tons
a terrifying trial
a life lived
not lied
Finding happiness
and hope
keeping in mind
life's scope
we watch and we wait
as we deal with life's weight
Taking pleasure in the small things
all the beauty that life brings,
the stars out each night
and the world in the light
we make the best of our fate
not leaving life 'til too late
52 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
9th Jul 2014 9:59pm
9th Jul 2014 9:59pm
10 000 Hours
Will I ever be that good
rocking stages,
changing lives
It seems so far off
out of reach
It's not
Just out of mind
It's finding the time
to do what I love
I'm good at programming
it's what I hope to do to make money
should I just write?
But am I any good
I have to be if I want to be great
can words be my food and the page my plate
if I need a vocation
to make my amends
to my family
who to, that I'm working
I used to pretend
It's balance that I need
then can I get in the hours...
rocking stages,
changing lives
It seems so far off
out of reach
It's not
Just out of mind
It's finding the time
to do what I love
I'm good at programming
it's what I hope to do to make money
should I just write?
But am I any good
I have to be if I want to be great
can words be my food and the page my plate
if I need a vocation
to make my amends
to my family
who to, that I'm working
I used to pretend
It's balance that I need
then can I get in the hours...
35 reads
1 Comment
SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
5th Jul 2014 8:58pm
5th Jul 2014 8:58pm
Work v. Play
I set aside time to work
to study today,
make a time table
Thursday... 7:00-9:00... Study
I watch a movie
I worry a little
but know it gets me nowhere
clean equals action
it's only
just for today
Tomorrow's another
easier then...
if done today
Consistency is key
pain the price
for lacklustre effort
only any lengths will suffice
I have trouble with 'it's life'
not a game
I can't live in absolutes
I'll learn as I live
from experience I should live to learn
I fear lack of control...
to study today,
make a time table
Thursday... 7:00-9:00... Study
I watch a movie
I worry a little
but know it gets me nowhere
clean equals action
it's only
just for today
Tomorrow's another
easier then...
if done today
Consistency is key
pain the price
for lacklustre effort
only any lengths will suffice
I have trouble with 'it's life'
not a game
I can't live in absolutes
I'll learn as I live
from experience I should live to learn
I fear lack of control...
60 reads
3 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
21st Sep 2013 4:17am
21st Sep 2013 4:17am
Dreary Bus Facade
Facade
Dreary office workers
business men and women
depressed
and under the weather
on their way to work
Reality
Interesting people
shutting down
building indifference
and fostering facelessness
in the face
of so many people
in their personal space
A proximity
that'd elsewise be
"Too close for comfort"
Dreary office workers
business men and women
depressed
and under the weather
on their way to work
Reality
Interesting people
shutting down
building indifference
and fostering facelessness
in the face
of so many people
in their personal space
A proximity
that'd elsewise be
"Too close for comfort"
108 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
13th Sep 2013 10:06pm
13th Sep 2013 10:06pm
Deserve Happiness
Pain,
born from naiveté
and weak will,
Voiceless
Torture,
internal thumbscrews
the price for silence
however long it takes
for me to forgive myself
and in so end
this self-inflicted
Violence
Deserve,
nothing,
my forgiveness
a farce to help face life
after sabotaging her
Happiness
Love,
all I can do
to try and heal the hurt,
love so much
that hate, hurt, doubt and distrust drown
in a sea of
Hope.
born from naiveté
and weak will,
Voiceless
Torture,
internal thumbscrews
the price for silence
however long it takes
for me to forgive myself
and in so end
this self-inflicted
Violence
Deserve,
nothing,
my forgiveness
a farce to help face life
after sabotaging her
Happiness
Love,
all I can do
to try and heal the hurt,
love so much
that hate, hurt, doubt and distrust drown
in a sea of
Hope.
102 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
13th Sep 2013 8:03pm
13th Sep 2013 8:03pm
The Hole
There's a hole
in my chest,
time passes
and it grows
It's excruciating
waiting
for the one
I need to see,
who can't help
but make me happy
She's my penicillin
and the cause
of my pain,
a woman
who can't help
but drive me insane
She has a hold on my heart
and she lives in my head,
my last waking thought
as my head hits the bed.
in my chest,
time passes
and it grows
It's excruciating
waiting
for the one
I need to see,
who can't help
but make me happy
She's my penicillin
and the cause
of my pain,
a woman
who can't help
but drive me insane
She has a hold on my heart
and she lives in my head,
my last waking thought
as my head hits the bed.
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1 Comment
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