Submissions by ChoaticGoddess (Arch-Angel)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
My name is Alyssa but my profile name is ChoaticGoddess I have been writing poetry for about six years now. I get my inspiration from the things I've been through and the things that those around me are going on around me.
SELF POEM
Published
31st Aug 2014 6:12pm
31st Aug 2014 6:12pm
Little GIrl
Little girl
Eight years old.
Believing everything she's told.
Sweet and innocent.
But by the end of the day her precious smile is spent.
She smiled through the name calling.
Smiled through all the hate.
She was just eight.
Ten year old girl
Hiding knives beneath her pillow.
Hiding inside her house,
Feeling so hollow.
She's fighting the urge to end it all.
Her smile hit the wall and she started to fall.
She's falling into her own darkness.
Depressed,
Repressing her sadness.
She's smiling a broken smile.
Her caring...
Eight years old.
Believing everything she's told.
Sweet and innocent.
But by the end of the day her precious smile is spent.
She smiled through the name calling.
Smiled through all the hate.
She was just eight.
Ten year old girl
Hiding knives beneath her pillow.
Hiding inside her house,
Feeling so hollow.
She's fighting the urge to end it all.
Her smile hit the wall and she started to fall.
She's falling into her own darkness.
Depressed,
Repressing her sadness.
She's smiling a broken smile.
Her caring...
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
31st Aug 2014 6:11pm
31st Aug 2014 6:11pm
When Did the World Get So Dark
When did the world get so dark?
What a scary place.
Why did this happen at all?
Humans are all going to fall
Into a bottomless pit.
Filled to the top with remorse and grief.
Apologetic for their greed.
But then it'll be too late.
Our hearts are all filled with hate.
When did the world get so dark?
It wasn't meant to be this way.
Little children are hiding and crying.
Wishing and hoping someday that things will be different.
There must be a change they say.
We are the new age.
When we grow up,
Things will shape up....
What a scary place.
Why did this happen at all?
Humans are all going to fall
Into a bottomless pit.
Filled to the top with remorse and grief.
Apologetic for their greed.
But then it'll be too late.
Our hearts are all filled with hate.
When did the world get so dark?
It wasn't meant to be this way.
Little children are hiding and crying.
Wishing and hoping someday that things will be different.
There must be a change they say.
We are the new age.
When we grow up,
Things will shape up....
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SELF POEM
Published
27th May 2014 4:11pm
27th May 2014 4:11pm
When I'm gone ( a very old poem)
The pain, it's overwelhming.
My mind is constantly reeling.
Why do I have to make this choice?
Do I give in?
Do I listen to the voice?
Telling me to give up.
Or do I keep going on through pain when i have nothing to gain.
I will slice my wrists.
Cut my throat.
Silently write that note.
It's time to give in.
Not begin again..
No more playing pretend.
Goodbye.
So long.
You know you won't miss me when I'm gone.
To disappear is my greatest wish.
Because I am nothing but a common bitch.
You all want me gone. I...
My mind is constantly reeling.
Why do I have to make this choice?
Do I give in?
Do I listen to the voice?
Telling me to give up.
Or do I keep going on through pain when i have nothing to gain.
I will slice my wrists.
Cut my throat.
Silently write that note.
It's time to give in.
Not begin again..
No more playing pretend.
Goodbye.
So long.
You know you won't miss me when I'm gone.
To disappear is my greatest wish.
Because I am nothing but a common bitch.
You all want me gone. I...
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SELF POEM
Published
9th Apr 2014 2:25pm
9th Apr 2014 2:25pm
I am done.
If I was crying you wouldn't care.
You'd just sit there and stare.
If I slit my throat.
None would take note.
If I disappeared.
It's my cries for help you wouldn't hear.
You say you care.
You truly don't.
To you, I'm a charity case.
It's my face.
My face in which hate.
I know I may not show it.
But eventually you'll know it.
I hate you.
None of you are true.
I'm alone.
I watch you with the others.
You just push me over.
Like I was nothing.
Well, I guess that's what I am.
Nothing.
...
You'd just sit there and stare.
If I slit my throat.
None would take note.
If I disappeared.
It's my cries for help you wouldn't hear.
You say you care.
You truly don't.
To you, I'm a charity case.
It's my face.
My face in which hate.
I know I may not show it.
But eventually you'll know it.
I hate you.
None of you are true.
I'm alone.
I watch you with the others.
You just push me over.
Like I was nothing.
Well, I guess that's what I am.
Nothing.
...
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SELF POEM
Published
13th Feb 2014 5:34pm
13th Feb 2014 5:34pm
No tittle
She feels worthless.
Self destruction.
Always wishing she was perfect.
Perfect weight.
108.
Looking in the mirror.
She wishes she was someone else.
Not this imperfect welp.
Hating everything she sees.
People tell her she's beautiful...
She silently thinks they are full of crap.
She wants to end it all.
She's just hit the wall.
When she's all alone.
The blade slices through her skin.
In places people would see if she was thin.
Her way upper thigh is covered in scars.
Beauty is what she thinks they are....
Self destruction.
Always wishing she was perfect.
Perfect weight.
108.
Looking in the mirror.
She wishes she was someone else.
Not this imperfect welp.
Hating everything she sees.
People tell her she's beautiful...
She silently thinks they are full of crap.
She wants to end it all.
She's just hit the wall.
When she's all alone.
The blade slices through her skin.
In places people would see if she was thin.
Her way upper thigh is covered in scars.
Beauty is what she thinks they are....
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SELF POEM
Published
12th Feb 2014 6:40pm
12th Feb 2014 6:40pm
Alone.
I wish I was dead.
So then I wouldn't have to constantly ask to go to bed.
I hate this world.
I'm just another girl who's voice was lost in the crowd.
This world can't be real.
There's so much pain.
I want to cry again.
The pain I give myself will no longer suffice.
My heart has turned into ice.
The fire, the burning passion that had once been in my heart is gone.
I am left alone.
With no one.
I have people around me.
But alone is all I'm meant to be.
Stab me in the heart. ...
So then I wouldn't have to constantly ask to go to bed.
I hate this world.
I'm just another girl who's voice was lost in the crowd.
This world can't be real.
There's so much pain.
I want to cry again.
The pain I give myself will no longer suffice.
My heart has turned into ice.
The fire, the burning passion that had once been in my heart is gone.
I am left alone.
With no one.
I have people around me.
But alone is all I'm meant to be.
Stab me in the heart. ...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
22nd Jan 2014 2:30pm
22nd Jan 2014 2:30pm
Dearest friend
Dearest friend.
This is the end.
I'm sick of life.
So tonight I shall take a knife to my heart.
Splatter my blood on the ground.
Turn it into to a form of art.
Tears running down my face.
My heart will be slowing its pace.
I'm tired of all the lies.
I'm sick of pretending to be alright.
So tonight I will end my life.
Staring into the dark.
Watching the light fade away.
You could have gotten me to stay..
Dearest friend.
This is goodbye.
No more lies.
I'll finally be free tonight.
Put...
This is the end.
I'm sick of life.
So tonight I shall take a knife to my heart.
Splatter my blood on the ground.
Turn it into to a form of art.
Tears running down my face.
My heart will be slowing its pace.
I'm tired of all the lies.
I'm sick of pretending to be alright.
So tonight I will end my life.
Staring into the dark.
Watching the light fade away.
You could have gotten me to stay..
Dearest friend.
This is goodbye.
No more lies.
I'll finally be free tonight.
Put...
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DARK POEM
Published
13th Jan 2014 4:16pm
13th Jan 2014 4:16pm
Society
Imperfect little girl, welcome to the real world.
Where people are tormented and teased.
Left with open wounds.
Left to bleed.
Come with me, my dear,
There is no need to fear.
You'll get your turn.
You'll surely burn in this game called life.
Oh look, a knife.
Slice, slice.
Cutting your pretty skin.
Oh you want to be thin?
Purge, Puke, throw it up,
Good girl. That's the stuff.
Keep going, you're almost there.
Sit inside
You want to die?
Oh, You attention seeking whore!
You want more?
Your heart is...
Where people are tormented and teased.
Left with open wounds.
Left to bleed.
Come with me, my dear,
There is no need to fear.
You'll get your turn.
You'll surely burn in this game called life.
Oh look, a knife.
Slice, slice.
Cutting your pretty skin.
Oh you want to be thin?
Purge, Puke, throw it up,
Good girl. That's the stuff.
Keep going, you're almost there.
Sit inside
You want to die?
Oh, You attention seeking whore!
You want more?
Your heart is...
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SELF POEM
Published
11th Dec 2013 6:34pm
11th Dec 2013 6:34pm
Super Vilian
Demented and dying.
Wishing I was like the heroes.
Flying.
But I'm like a villian.
Kilin.
A super hero is what I want to be.
But all I am is just me.
I'm like a super vilian flying all the way across the seas.
Spreading pain and Misery.
Hating who I am. Because everything I do is bad!
All I am is rageful.
Completely hateful.
Wishing I was someone else.
But the real me is on a shelf.
I want to be a golden girl.
The destroyer of worlds.
I'm apart of the shadows.
Completely Hollow.
Fucking up everything.
I'm the murder...
Wishing I was like the heroes.
Flying.
But I'm like a villian.
Kilin.
A super hero is what I want to be.
But all I am is just me.
I'm like a super vilian flying all the way across the seas.
Spreading pain and Misery.
Hating who I am. Because everything I do is bad!
All I am is rageful.
Completely hateful.
Wishing I was someone else.
But the real me is on a shelf.
I want to be a golden girl.
The destroyer of worlds.
I'm apart of the shadows.
Completely Hollow.
Fucking up everything.
I'm the murder...
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LOVE POEM
Published
11th Dec 2013 4:29pm
11th Dec 2013 4:29pm
(just found this from and old poem series I wrote) I fell in love with a boy:
I fell in love with a boy, who told me he wants me.
I fell in love with a boy, who told me he loves me.
I fell i love with a boy, who told me he doesn't want to hurt me.
I fell in love with a boy, who played me.
I fell in love and now I'm broken.
Gotta say this again.
I don't want pain.
I want a smile that will shine bright for miles.
But no. It refuses to show.
I fell in love with a boy, who told me he loves me.
I fell i love with a boy, who told me he doesn't want to hurt me.
I fell in love with a boy, who played me.
I fell in love and now I'm broken.
Gotta say this again.
I don't want pain.
I want a smile that will shine bright for miles.
But no. It refuses to show.
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SELF POEM
Published
4th Dec 2013 2:28pm
4th Dec 2013 2:28pm
Slowly
Slowly fading away.
Slowly losing my mind.
Can someone save me?
Lost in the shadows again.
Wanting nothing but pain.
Thinking there's nothing to gain.
Will someone save me?
I know I have no destiny.
Life is filled with misery.
No one wants me.
Such a pitiful human being I must be.
Losing my mind,
I have so much to hide.
You see this smile?
Shining for miles?
It is fake.
A big mistake.
The dumb things I do.
Man, I'm such a fool.
Slowly wasting away.
I'm sitting here alone,
Fighting my...
Slowly losing my mind.
Can someone save me?
Lost in the shadows again.
Wanting nothing but pain.
Thinking there's nothing to gain.
Will someone save me?
I know I have no destiny.
Life is filled with misery.
No one wants me.
Such a pitiful human being I must be.
Losing my mind,
I have so much to hide.
You see this smile?
Shining for miles?
It is fake.
A big mistake.
The dumb things I do.
Man, I'm such a fool.
Slowly wasting away.
I'm sitting here alone,
Fighting my...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
30th Sep 2013 3:57pm
30th Sep 2013 3:57pm
Untitled
Craving the blade,
Wanting the pain.
Shaking, breaking.
Shattering into pieces,
Craving blood.
hating everyone.
Wanting no one near.
Hating it here.
Everything is becoming clear.
Resentful, mournful.
The scream of the blade.
Use me! Use me!
You know it's meant to be.
The heart wants it.
The mind needs it.
Someone says, "Hold on."
NO FUCK YOU.
I hate you.
"It'll be okay"
Your words aren't true.
The sound of skin being sliced.
A work of art.
Finally caved in. ...
Wanting the pain.
Shaking, breaking.
Shattering into pieces,
Craving blood.
hating everyone.
Wanting no one near.
Hating it here.
Everything is becoming clear.
Resentful, mournful.
The scream of the blade.
Use me! Use me!
You know it's meant to be.
The heart wants it.
The mind needs it.
Someone says, "Hold on."
NO FUCK YOU.
I hate you.
"It'll be okay"
Your words aren't true.
The sound of skin being sliced.
A work of art.
Finally caved in. ...
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