Submissions by Caged_Raven
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I hope you're not in search of a happy poem. If you read my works you are reading into my heart. Cold and broken. Enjoy and stomach it if you can.
Faded Memories and Nicotine Nights
Late at night, in the light of a full moon
I pull up a lawn chair and take in the warm air
The wrapper of my Marlboro Gold crinkles
As I pull out a cigarette carefully, ensuring its safety
The flame from the lighter glows upon my face
Inhale and exhale as the sweet nicotine takes over
Inducing a high as I begin to let my feelings flow
Closing my eyes I begin to play images of memories
Like film, my eyes project clips of my younger days
When things were much easier, persuaded by innocence
When mistakes had no consequence only a lesson learned
I wish...
I pull up a lawn chair and take in the warm air
The wrapper of my Marlboro Gold crinkles
As I pull out a cigarette carefully, ensuring its safety
The flame from the lighter glows upon my face
Inhale and exhale as the sweet nicotine takes over
Inducing a high as I begin to let my feelings flow
Closing my eyes I begin to play images of memories
Like film, my eyes project clips of my younger days
When things were much easier, persuaded by innocence
When mistakes had no consequence only a lesson learned
I wish...
#tobacco
#disappointment
#nostalgia #regret
#nostalgia #regret
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Addicted to Misery
Hold out your knife so I can fall on it
I won’t let you have the satisfaction
Of being the one that buried it first
Twist the blade and watch me smile
The endorphins are flowing in my veins
As the dopamine kicks in to full gear
It turns me on when you kick in my teeth
With your words like steel tipped boots
Landing in my mouth as I laugh manically
Open up my scars again with your claws
Watching it flow like crimson waterfalls
Waiting for it to pool on the concrete
So my face can land in it and drown
Push me deep into the soiled grass...
I won’t let you have the satisfaction
Of being the one that buried it first
Twist the blade and watch me smile
The endorphins are flowing in my veins
As the dopamine kicks in to full gear
It turns me on when you kick in my teeth
With your words like steel tipped boots
Landing in my mouth as I laugh manically
Open up my scars again with your claws
Watching it flow like crimson waterfalls
Waiting for it to pool on the concrete
So my face can land in it and drown
Push me deep into the soiled grass...
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Creep (A Series of Haikus)
Outcast
Sheltered in my mind
Only my thoughts bring me peace
Thoughts of constant escape
Mockery
They taunt me with laughs
A clown dressed in gothic attire
Bringing me further down
Foolish
To think I’d be happy
To believe in fantasy
That I was regular
Failure
In all that I do
It’s what I seem to do well
Even in this writing
Normal
What I long to be
I hate being so damn awkward
I’m just a fucking creep
Sheltered in my mind
Only my thoughts bring me peace
Thoughts of constant escape
Mockery
They taunt me with laughs
A clown dressed in gothic attire
Bringing me further down
Foolish
To think I’d be happy
To believe in fantasy
That I was regular
Failure
In all that I do
It’s what I seem to do well
Even in this writing
Normal
What I long to be
I hate being so damn awkward
I’m just a fucking creep
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A Mess
Fucking scum, I should have never been born
The fabric of my life is scattered and torn
I hate the voice that encircles my head
With taunting that never ceases to end
Calling me out on my constant failures
Creating quite the mental endeavors
Bottom of the barrel, always in last place
Even the mirror breaks when I see my face
As it crumbles to the ground scarring my arm
Picking up the pieces causing more self-harm
I just can’t seem to do anything right anymore
Makes me wonder what god put me here for
Just living each day out pointlessly like...
The fabric of my life is scattered and torn
I hate the voice that encircles my head
With taunting that never ceases to end
Calling me out on my constant failures
Creating quite the mental endeavors
Bottom of the barrel, always in last place
Even the mirror breaks when I see my face
As it crumbles to the ground scarring my arm
Picking up the pieces causing more self-harm
I just can’t seem to do anything right anymore
Makes me wonder what god put me here for
Just living each day out pointlessly like...
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Daydream
Come hither and hold me in your arms
I need your warmth more than ever
Caress me in your soft skin and pull me in
Let me know that you still care
And promise that you will never leave me
Like heroine each time you stoke my hair
I feel the sudden release as I endure the high
I breathe in the sweet smell of your perfume
The lavender scent is always so enticing
Whisper loving words, let me know you are here
I’m so lost in this dark and scary world
As we watch the sun slowly creep away
I also feel your grip slowly creep from me
I feel so alone...
I need your warmth more than ever
Caress me in your soft skin and pull me in
Let me know that you still care
And promise that you will never leave me
Like heroine each time you stoke my hair
I feel the sudden release as I endure the high
I breathe in the sweet smell of your perfume
The lavender scent is always so enticing
Whisper loving words, let me know you are here
I’m so lost in this dark and scary world
As we watch the sun slowly creep away
I also feel your grip slowly creep from me
I feel so alone...
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Execution of my mind
Where is the door, Where are the windows?
They might be behind these white paddings
What am I wearing all bound in straps? it feels tight
There’s something I know that isn’t right
I’m on death row, serving life imprisoned in my head
The only crime committed is just trying to stay alive
I am so tired from these long nights staying awake
I feel the needle pierce my skin, as my eyes shut
Open for a peek and try to make out the faces of my captors,
But my vision has become blurred as the toxin ensues
The voices get deeper, I hear them calling my name
A...
They might be behind these white paddings
What am I wearing all bound in straps? it feels tight
There’s something I know that isn’t right
I’m on death row, serving life imprisoned in my head
The only crime committed is just trying to stay alive
I am so tired from these long nights staying awake
I feel the needle pierce my skin, as my eyes shut
Open for a peek and try to make out the faces of my captors,
But my vision has become blurred as the toxin ensues
The voices get deeper, I hear them calling my name
A...
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I'm back... well sort of...
So I guess I should kind of explain myself
About a month ago, I left very abruptly
Telling everyone that I was going to stop writing
And that I needed time to myself
Well...
As usual, I have been relapsing with my depression
I thought that maybe it was the writing, my personality
So I decided to go for a little while and try it out
just keep myself occupied and my mind off things...
I'm sad to report that it had absolutely no effect
I still can't sleep well, have suicidal thoughts
and just really don't care about much except at work...
About a month ago, I left very abruptly
Telling everyone that I was going to stop writing
And that I needed time to myself
Well...
As usual, I have been relapsing with my depression
I thought that maybe it was the writing, my personality
So I decided to go for a little while and try it out
just keep myself occupied and my mind off things...
I'm sad to report that it had absolutely no effect
I still can't sleep well, have suicidal thoughts
and just really don't care about much except at work...
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11 Comments
Warm Summer Nights (a collaboration with chilipino and flowergirl)
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4 Comments
Eulogy
Dearly departed we are gathered here today
To pay tribute to a truly lost soul
Stated, his demise was untimely and unruly
His quest for eternal peace is at last complete
A lit match whose smile had once set ablaze
To the hearts of the ones who cared for him
That simply burned out in a cloud of smoke
Leaving us with charred remnants of the past
He left in a single page note, written in ink
That all he needed was to clear his mind
But sadly, he did it on the wrong side of a .45
Though we mourn for his leaving of this world
We pray that he finds...
To pay tribute to a truly lost soul
Stated, his demise was untimely and unruly
His quest for eternal peace is at last complete
A lit match whose smile had once set ablaze
To the hearts of the ones who cared for him
That simply burned out in a cloud of smoke
Leaving us with charred remnants of the past
He left in a single page note, written in ink
That all he needed was to clear his mind
But sadly, he did it on the wrong side of a .45
Though we mourn for his leaving of this world
We pray that he finds...
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Dark feelings
Stranded, alone, cold
Wishing for death
An everyday reality
To fill my boring monotony
I’m so sick of living here
Facing myself in a broken mirror
The numbness has started to wear
Again, I feel my soul begin to tear
This isn’t just some bad dream
This is the real fucking deal
Something is wrong with me
Something I just can’t tell
Maybe it’s the coffee or the nicotine
That holds the last stand of string
Keeping me together in this world
The weight of burden is about to burst
Causing this gun and my head to converse
I just...
Wishing for death
An everyday reality
To fill my boring monotony
I’m so sick of living here
Facing myself in a broken mirror
The numbness has started to wear
Again, I feel my soul begin to tear
This isn’t just some bad dream
This is the real fucking deal
Something is wrong with me
Something I just can’t tell
Maybe it’s the coffee or the nicotine
That holds the last stand of string
Keeping me together in this world
The weight of burden is about to burst
Causing this gun and my head to converse
I just...
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18 Comments
I'm Sorry... (Finale)
I’m sorry I can’t always be there when you need me
Sometimes I get caught up in shit as well you see
I’m sorry I can’t always be strong like you want me to be
I can’t help that nature provided me such a weak body
Sorry for the tears I cried and having all these dark feelings
That I can’t provide you sufficient answers and meaning
I’m sorry I can’t be everything that you wish I was
I’m just another human living without a cause
I’m sorry now that I have to go away for a while
I need to cleanse myself, body mind and soul
This is my finale. I’ll be back...
Sometimes I get caught up in shit as well you see
I’m sorry I can’t always be strong like you want me to be
I can’t help that nature provided me such a weak body
Sorry for the tears I cried and having all these dark feelings
That I can’t provide you sufficient answers and meaning
I’m sorry I can’t be everything that you wish I was
I’m just another human living without a cause
I’m sorry now that I have to go away for a while
I need to cleanse myself, body mind and soul
This is my finale. I’ll be back...
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Second Chance
I feel the pain in my chest. One last pound
My heart ceases, the last breath drawn
From my lips whispers my last words, your name
I’ve lived long enough, seen all to see
Your warm tears on my face, I still feel
Gripping my hand, clinging in hope im alive
But im free now my dear, I’m in no more pain
No longer caged, I fly to the heavens
This must be a dream, this must be a dream
I keep telling myself over and over as I fade to black
My soul isn’t at rest, as it falls to the caverns below
Mistakes and a scattered past has left me in flames ...
My heart ceases, the last breath drawn
From my lips whispers my last words, your name
I’ve lived long enough, seen all to see
Your warm tears on my face, I still feel
Gripping my hand, clinging in hope im alive
But im free now my dear, I’m in no more pain
No longer caged, I fly to the heavens
This must be a dream, this must be a dream
I keep telling myself over and over as I fade to black
My soul isn’t at rest, as it falls to the caverns below
Mistakes and a scattered past has left me in flames ...
139 reads
8 Comments
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