What went wrong in my life?

To Drift Away    

When I close my eyes
and drift away
I re-open old dreams of
new surprise
in younger days
before my life lines
became a haze
before street signs
became all one way
when all I needed
I could find
along the way
before the bind
of an every day
when a golden hind
docked to bay
before the future fined
a clocked fee  I'd pay
then suddenly I
came back to today
I realised luck had struck
needless to say
when you penned a new book
by coming my way
what we have cooked
will last an always
international cuisine
grilled in sunny rays
a new machine  
will kill
all the yesterdays .

blond haired hell cuz it sells

i've got sadistic afflictions/for christians/and bitches/
with weak disses/malicious inscriptions/ and scriptures/ to leave you and your mrs./
bleedin in inverted positions/murderous visions/hit you with burnin incisions/
like my sole purpose is prison/

that trifling/chewin on vicodin/automatic rifleman/
laughin at leviathan/
slash you from your eye to chin/
static and a pint of gin/
addict on the mic again/
demon in the attic with a ball of crack and a can/
tryin to find meaning/in being/the maniac that i am/
im leavin/dreamin and scheming/of doin somethin with some meaning/
but thas jus anotha one of my demons/

im an ill drill sgt/who kills with skill of a skilled marksmith/
trapped in this lil apartment/killin the parchment/
spill on the pavement/
my bad ass behavior/
wash my mouth out with buckshot and do the underground a favor/
how long is it gonna take ya?/
what happened to your flava?/
where's your pulse?/did u get fucked up behind another tuls/
whats that thing u water ur garden with?/
oh yeh its the hoes/
i got drunk and gave her all my clothes/
she got the house the car and fucked all my bros/
put her head on a post/
how u suppost?/
to think im gonna allow u to keep livin?
with all ur venting and inventing/
situations that would put me in prison/
in the beginning/there was clean linen/and honest livin/
but now im trippin/on all the cocaine abuse and bitchin/
aborted fetuses/
whatever im a piece of shit/this is how our greetings is/

its 430 am on a thursday
i hope u never wake up again
you're beautiful
i love u
goodbye

eleven

at age eleven
an eighteen-year-old split
danielle into two
different people. he (the
name of him is
unimportant) convinced
danielle (at age eleven) to send
nude pictures
of herself. she was lonely.
she was taken advantage of.
she didn’t realise. but
he did.
he knew.
on that day, danielle
ceased to be simply
danielle. she became
Dolphin, and she became
he.